The fear of tomorrow
The rush of today
The sorrows of good-bye
Bombs in the distance
Bad smells and loud yells
Don't forget me
I'll come home I promise
You'll see

Unlike some,
I do not want to be a masterpiece
on an artist's wall
I do not want to be the overplayed
song on the top 10 charts
Don't get me wrong
it's lovely to be the only
flower in a green field

I want to be the used
paintbrush the young artist
quietly learns to keep forever
I want to be the only pencil
the writer takes life notes with
I do not want to be a favorite
book, sitting on the top
of your shelf.

I do not want to be an abandoned
word you left unsaid,
I want to be the analog camera
you use when the world is
flickering in fuzzy city lights

I want to be the poet's
stanzas in prose
I want to be the failed
color shade of mistake
on an artist's art work

I want you to learn that when
the tides roll in,
when the sand dusts oxygen
in thin air.
the shreds of my heart
will curl like burning photographs

I am the napkin you use
when there is no paper
or phone or notebook
to write down every inch
of your feeling.

Never forget your strength
Rocky roads and shattered hope
Only allows climbing from this downward *****
Never forget the love
The love that saved souls
And developed a clearer picture of our future goals
Never forget your courage
When you risen from feeling small
And answered my weeping call
Never doubt your pride
You were my guide through hell
A helping hand I'd never sell
Never forget your power
When us girls were lost at sea
You heard our cries, you knew how things were supposed to be
I never forget all that you've done
You saved us from the sweltering sun
You saved us from the angry pain
A weakened soul with too much to gain
Outbursts of evil and slammed doors
You knew how to make it not hurt anymore
So times like these when you think I don't care
It's only because the present is too much to bare
I know what your capable of
I guess I just miss the love
The unbreakable bond we once shared
Untouchable by loud voices and words that weren't cared
Never forget my love
The only person who can judge you is above
You are strong. Please don't forget.

Sand paper hands
And blanket warm skin
Help her though, she can't remember the smell
When's the last time you spoke the single syllable she loves so much
And how is it that you cause her a tornado of emotions
While all anyone can hear
Is white noise
You walk past her like she's a ghost
It's silent, but look at her! She's screaming your name!
Her knuckles are white from holding on
Her fingernails imprinted on her palm
Foolish, foolish girl
Let no one justify her mistakes
Because it was you wasn't it, who blindfolded her
You spun her around, told her to run, and when she opened her eyes
You would be there....you would be there
She's still spinning
Waiting for the right time to sprint

"i'll love you until that balloon deflates"
a 3 am lie.
pining over old prom dates,
trying not to die.
don't act like we're first mates.
stop making me cry.
devours. he satiates.
i'm grasping air, i'm a shallow sigh.

he said
it's just easier this way,
to let you go before you're
gone

she said
you're only hurting yourself
more, letting go instead of
holding on to hope

he said*
i just don't want to hold on
anymore

she said*
but you have to, for me
please

(but for her own sake,
she'd already prepared herself
to get ready to let go)