I guess I'm just obsessed with listening to
sad music late at night.
Helps the tears come down.
Helps the thoughts to take over.
Helps me feel worse about myself.
-te

I
j u s t
w i s h
I
c o u l d
t e l l
y o u
a l l
m y
t h o u g h t s
-te

one of those nights I lay here wide awake
where everything just aches
thinking about the world
and all of its mysterious questions
lately its like everything swirled
into new directions.
not enjoying the change
its all too strange.
making my view not very lovely
when things used to be seen so beautifully
now its all dull and grey,
a blur, even on the best of days.
a smile appears quite often,
fake or real,
its important
to know how I feel.
-te

I think I should stop picking out all my flaws
because that is what breaks me down.
I think I should stop picking out all my flaws
because that is what ruins me.
I have cute freckles,
but lots of acne.
I have some nice curves,
but I am fat.
I have nice nails,
but my hands are chubby.
I think I should stop picking out all my flaws,
but that is impossible
-te

what do you do when you find out
your first love,
the one you love
doesn't love you anymore.

what do you do when you find out
that boy that cares about you so much
way too much,
does it to every other girl.

what do you do when you find out
the ones you think love you,
cherish you
just pretend to get what they want.

what do you do when you realize,
how stupid you were
how very stupid
to fall for such bad boys.

-te

im having a fresh start
starting everything over.

forget about the past
from the horrible mistakes
and terrible heart aches

the crying over dumb relationships
end with one kiss from your soft lips

I've realized im not a ****
im not  a *****
im just a girl who likes lots of boys

no more dating
no more hating

I will live how I want to.
listen to my friends whenever im blue.

im having a fresh start.
starting everything over.
-te