that one love
I cherished
that one love
I miss so **** much!
everything about him
that one love
I love so deeply
so uncontrollably
it just
h u r t s
-te

sometimes I wonder about
e v e r y t h i n g
it hurts my brain
making me go insane
trying to release this
pain
it produces
even more excuses
come out of my mouth
more lies
faint cries
teary eyes
all because of what?
e v e r y t h i n g
-te

can all of this please just stop
the tears
the anguish
the thoughts
I need everything to just stop
I want everything to be
normal
-te

never thought about cutting before
never thought that it would have to come to that.
I guess I was wrong.
not sure how or where I would do it.
not sure if I would be able to handle
the pain
the marks
my nails are long
sharp
thought it would work
I tried to dig,
tried to break through
my skin
nothing!
only a mark
a red line
appearing on my wrist
to fade away
or
become deeper
-te

why is my breathing so heavy
and my stomach in pain
why do I feel nauseous
and not feel sane.
my body so weak
its so hard to move
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I have been sitting here for an hour
trying to figure out what to write
I've been sitting here crying
not knowing why
I have been sitting here tapping my fingers on the keyboard
like a crazy person trying to write a good poem
I'm avoiding people's messages
I'm avoiding listening to music
just to write a good poem
but this is all I got.