I don't want to know you do that
I don't want to know that you feel like you hate your life so much you hurt yourself
it kills me inside to know something like that
it kills me even more to know that we're an hour apart and im not able to get to you and just hug you
give you a big hug
tell you everything will be better
you can get through this
one person can change your life
but you decide
a good or bad change.
make it a good one
and continue on.
-te

your eyes are like black holes
they reel me in and there is no way of getting out
I stare deeply into the black holes and know that there will be
no escape
somehow my arms are around your neck
your hands around my waist
I open my eyes and see those black holes are covered
its my turn to stop this
I push you away
but
the black holes appear again
I appear back wrapped around you
feeling trapped
-te

i need you
i need you now
the only one who understood
the only one who stayed
things might have changed
but i still love you.
-te

never felt what you're going through
but im trying to help
you always help me
its my turn to help you
sorry i give bad advice
sorry im not much help
but unlike others
i do care
i care about you
i care about what you do
i care about everything that has to do with you
and if me saying
"wow, im sorry, i know im not much help, but lets just get away from here"
isnt enough
then im sorry.
-te

this time at night
everynight
i get like this
depressing thoughts
tears running down my face
stuffy nose
its like a routine
over and over
day by day
some days its better then others
but others
are horrible.
-te

these thoughts
sweeping
over
my brain
taking over
taking the controls
making everything seem
impossible
no ambition
no worth
everything
s l o w l y
drowning out of me
until two words are left
"why me"
-te

why stress about all the regrets
when we can smile for just a little while
dont use the word hate
knowing everything will turn out great
forget about the pain
and the depressing rain
the pouring tears
and countless fears
take it all away
your days aren't so grey
there's colour in the sky
no need to cry
a new perspective is always needed
the scars and wounds become treated.
one change makes a big difference
it gives us some independance.
-te