In life you will get hurt a lot
and that's inevitable
but it is within your own self
of what you do with that pain
will you let it make you bitter
or will you transmute this agony into love & nurture it so that the suffering doesn't happen once again?

But just know that you are stronger than you'll ever realize
the obstacles you go through are lessons in life that needs to be experienced
in able for you to mature & nurture into a person you'll turn to love

Just recognize that positive changes don't just happen overnight
but don't ever let yourself lose hope
stay optimistic & always try to see the silver lining for everything
if you mess up, accept that fact & don't let it happen again
if anyone messes you up, learn to forgive, theirs a weight that will be uplifted from your chest

Trust me, things will get better, eventually
but it won't be perfect & it won't be fixed as how you'd want it to be
so learn to live through the small happiness in life
and smile at the little things

Lastly, take care of yourself
remember that you mean everything to somebody
and you are everything to yourself
and that alone is enough
don't let yourself get trapped in the past
live in the moment & seek into the future
because things are brighter on the other side
filled with surprises & happiness
that will come along your way

You will see that rainbow after the rain
how the stars shine so bright, just like that smile in your face
flowers will grow into your lungs & make a garden filled with hope & new chances
oceans will help sail you through all the hardships in life
that sunrise will remind you a new beginning is coming
and that sunset to tell you that you've made it through the day without giving up & you moved forward

He told me that we both can still remain as friends,
What he really meant to say was that
We can be those type of strangers that share all these silent memories together & smile at one another, once in a while.

He told me that he would never forget me,
But I knew once he saw her walking through the crowd
I was just some other girl to him
And she was that special girl he'd dream of

He told me that he was no good for me,
I didn't listen to him
So I took a chance on him
But I was left with a broken heart
And I hear his words "I told you so"

He told me he liked me,
Happiness it brought upon me
Giggles & smiles on my face
But his admiration
Had an expiration date

He told me all these things,
And I hold onto every words he say
I kept them locked in my heart
And it shattered me apart
Yet he never seemed to know
How much I cared & adored him
And now I just watch him leave
Loving another
With my heart broken into pieces
I could never hate him though
And I'm left with the broken promises & wrecked expectations & it starts to burn into my lungs
I gasp for air
But the only thing I could utter for help was your name
You weren't there anymore
Leaving me with unfulfilled hopes
And love I could never seem to give to another

Everyday she puts a smile on her face
all for a boy who'll never care
she puts all her effort to impress him
but his attention always seemed somewhere else
she hopes and waits
that he'll look her way
she wishes that it was back to the way before
full of bliss
just the two of them happily
with no other people in the way
for she longs to have those moments back
but for now she just replays those memories in her head
and maybe one day it'll be back to normal again
she misses him so
looks like he has moved on though
forgotten all about her
and acts like she doesn't even exist
it hurts her a whole lot
but she rather be seeing him
than not seeing him at all
because he has become
the air that she breathes everyday
the oxygen that she needs
in order to survive

Kiss them once & never let your lips touch theirs
Tell them all these sweet & lovely things, & act like everything you told them was just a lie
Make eye contact with them, but look through their eyes full of regret
See them everyday, pretend they never existed & look right through their souls
Embrace them & then never touch their skin again
Hold their hand & make sure to leave them wanting more
Make all these good memories with them & leave them hanging like the past few months meant nothing to you
Talk to them every day & let them be part of your daily routine, then one day just completely ignore them & never talk to them ever again

I fell for your mentality
just like the way you said my name
full of life & positivity

I wish to be able to read your mind
get to know your every thought
hear about your life long dreams, desires, & darkest secrets

I want is you here right beside me
have your arms embrace me
as you whisper sweet dreams into my ears, so I could get a good night sleep

Because I'd rather have you lying down next to me
instead of me missing you daily

Ever loved and cared for someone so much?
Isn't it so hauntingly beautiful
How they can make you feel vulnerable
Yet they give you such a delightful feeling at the same time
They slowly open your chest
Which leads them to opening your heart
For them having the advantage of
Messing you up
And ripping your apart
And all your life you build all these walls
Protecting your kingdom, which is your heart
By having all these guards to keep you away from heart break
Then one day
One person
Not any different from any other person in this world
Who you did not ask for to come into your life
Just decides to step in
Wanders through your life
Knowing your strengths and weaknesses
Then they become a part of your daily routine
And you give them a part of you
That you never did to anyone else before
You just hand all these things to them
But they never asked for it
Because they did something insane
Like hold your hand or smile at you
Then this life of yours
Your little kingdom is opened
Welcoming them into your own world
Then this place of your own becomes theirs too
And your life isn't your own
Because loving someone will get inside you
Holding you a prisoner
Enrapturing you in every way possible
Letting you have all these emotions
Making you feel alive
Then leaving you in the darkness
And one day
That special person tells you
"I'm no good for you. We should stay friends"
Shatters you apart like a broken glass
A splinter working its way into your beating heart
And it hurts a **** lot
Not the type of hurt you'll get over it soon type of hurt
But a hurt where it eats you inside
A hurt where it rips every part of you
The kind of hurt where it gets into your brain
Making you go insane
But also the kind of hurt where only that one person can fix
And even after they make you feel this way
You'll do it all over again
Because it's worth it
They are worth it
And that is what it means to love
It is painfully beautiful

I am jealous of your bed sheets, that gets to know what happened throughout your day
That gets to find out all your secrets at 3 in the morning
And gets to know who the real you is
I am jealous how it gets to listen to your heart beat every night before you go to sleep
Jealous how it gets to listen to all your favourite songs
How it's able to comfort you from the cold, because I wish my embrace could do that
I am jealous how it's able to wipe out all your tears from the bad days you've been having, because I wish I could take away your sadness for you
I am jealous how you look forward to be in your bed every night, because I wish I could be your home that you come to
I am jealous how it's always there for you, even if you didn't need it
Because I just hope that I could be there for you even if I didn't have to
But I can't because you won't let me be there
I am jealous how it brings you comfort & warmth
For how I wish I could be the one to comfort you
Jealous how it gets to tuck you in every night
And how it gets to sleep and be with you whenever you want to
Because I wish so bad to be with you whenever
Mostly I am jealous how it's where you want to be at most times, when you have your dark days
Because I just want you to come to me in the times where you're at your lowest
I am jealous how it knows all your stories, your strengths, weaknesses
Because I just want to be able to know them too
Jealous how it's the most comfortable place to be, because I wish to be your safe haven