i fell into a deep grey void
and i can't get out
there's no sky
nothing but emptiness here
but i can sense the other side
so i scrath the walls until my nails bleed
red
i'll never reach the colours outside
so i'll settle for the red blood that's appearing
in my attempt of trying

the word "love"
does not exist
in the dictionary
that is me

i want to feel
i want to feel it all
but i dont feel
i kind of fall
but not into love
i fall into a void
of self pity and hate

i cry every year on my birthday
you couldn't be there to keep traditions
so i made my own

i expect too much of
myself
and of
others

pretty petty you
you don't have to be
a certain way
and you don't have to live
a certain way

so why
why do you expect it from
others?

my gateway
is a sad song
and a single tear