I turned back
Your face faded
Into the sunlight

I could only see
Your sweet smile
And tears fall

This happiness
Will it last
I asked

Though in my heart
I keep begging
For it to last

Through all the pain
Through all the tears
I can still say...

I love you.

The sudden cold of the wind
Flashbacks of bittersweet wounds
Seem to make even the stars cry

The numbness of one heart
Becoming an illness oneself
It hurts more than death

It started to fade
Forgotten and started erasing
And began to reach

Yet the endless sea
Seems to deceive more than the eye
Flooding every memory away

The sudden cold of the wind
Flashbacks of bittersweet wounds
Seem to make even the stars cry

Two roads in twined
Our hearts divided
The wind that blew away love
Why could it not take away pain?

Emptying the roadside clean
The storm then came crashing in
Broken pieces yet again shattered
There is nothing farther than here

The last leaf of the tree starts to freeze
Winter has made its entrance
Finally standing in front of you
Though frozen walls kept me within

A cold palm against the icy wall
Starts to feel the warmth of your hand
My tears that could not break it open
Tells me you’ve already forgotten

The forgotten memory keeps the ice wall strong
For when my hand moved
Yours kept searching
I stand invisible in your sight

Seasons start to change
Yet it seems winter does not say goodbye
As I watch you walk away
The ice wall starts to break

Silence flooded my every mind
And even if I shouted your name
You would never turn back
For now you walk a different road

Spring has come on the road
I stay chained to the winter mode
Watching the colorful leaves dance
The heart slowly freezes away

Two roads apart
Our hearts separated
The season that took away love
Only left pain to stay forever

The hand stroke at midnight
Still I lie awake here in the emptiness
Without a single twinkle of a star in the sky
My eyes can only wish for drowsiness

The white ceiling turned into a play of shadows
Little white fireflies start to fly across my sight
What land did they come from? I wished to know
I tried to ask yet one by one they disappeared into the moonlight

Their dancing replayed in my mind
They looked so happy and carefree
And I wondered why I couldn’t savor that joy in life
I’m chained yet no one can see

Every night the white fireflies came
And I’m starting to realize why
For only they can see my chains
Yet can do nothing but just light their fire

Apart from falling can there be anything worse
The day has begun to seem night
Every sight the evil pleasure
Where has the light gone

A stampede of thoughts
Confused, helpless and scared
The time is ticking too fast
Yet the will does not seem to move past

Why have you come, old
This feeling oh so good yet surely so wrong
What pill, drug or cure can be attained
Tell or forever be ******

The evil that is fought
Seems to never be weakened
Unless something comes in between
Yet what may arrive

Hate and love that marries each other
Bore an offspring that is prepared to destroy
Yet also feels compassion to healing
Where shall the good be placed

A thousand pleas
Destroy the evil within
A million prayers
Heal the wounds forever

There are memories that are wrapped in tears
With fear, I fall in love again
There's nothing I hear or speak
Looking into your eyes
The love begins again

You are a light
That touches my heart
There is no other that can make such wonder in me
You are a star that I cannot reach
But with love I will cross that border
Nobody looks at me the way you do
Only you
There is only you

Your kiss withholds the truth
There are moments that are kept inside
And even though you push them away they never go
There are instances like ours
That becomes magic
Looking into your eyes
The love begins again


Nobody loves me the way you do
Only you
There is only you.

Each day I hear the bounce of the ball
For a long time, only know do I realize it was the call
The silhouette of your form within the trees
Never knew how my heart feels at ease

The beating gets faster
As the ball bounces higher
My heart raced so fast
That I wanted it to last

Maybe one day our glances will meet
But for now from afar your face I will keep
Your every cry, smile and depression
I will keep until the confession

This mysterious feeling of the heart
From you will never depart
Till the day it lets go
Even when this heart of mine you may never know.

The trees danced gracefully with the wind
I could feel the emotion it gives
The sweet kiss of the morning's dew
Reminds me of my memories with you
The picturesque of the skies gives everyone a smile
Yet for me it is sorrow making worthwhile
The songs of the mid-day birds ring a bell
It was the pain I never wanted to tell
The mingling bodies of flowers in the garden tells a tale
It was you and I under lover's cave
Yet the fairytale of our love ended too soon
Falling too deep made me like a fool
The breaking of the dawn revealed it all
Our love was a lie when you made the call
The sunset has yet again ended the day
But the pain I feel still remain
Though now I know what our love is like
It is when darkness collides with light.

Raindrops glide gently on the window
My heart starts to beat slow
Staring at the unknown
I wish to be home

The skies cry bitterly
Land takes the tears painfully
The trees try to hold on
Yet nothing seems enough to be strong

Tracing the falling raindrop
Why has life been a trap?
When closing your eyes to ease the pain
Can never bring back the slain

The skies remain gray
Filled with all the pain
In bed I lay
Wishing for someone to stay.

The clouds turned grey today
Was it going to rain?
The cool wind started to blow against me
As I sat on the soft sand looking out to the sea
The waves gave me a memory
Back in the time where my heart fluttered for him
Where every color seems so bright
And his face was the one that gave light
Yet the cool wind started to grew colder
Giving a warning that everything is to be over
Is it already raining?
Or are my tears falling?
It hurts
To hear him say those words
My world fell apart
And felt like a knife stab my heart
The sea seems so far away from where I sat
Like taking away all I had
I could only sit still and watch everything leave
Though I wanted to scream
My mouth felt like it had sewn itself up
And could only wish for the last teardrop
I wanted the tears to dry away
Because maybe it might lessen the pain
I wanted to closed my eyes
And imagine everything is a lie
That everything is only in my dreams
And when I wake up everything would change the way I feel
But my eyes would not close
It held on to that sorrowful sight
He walked away
Again and again it replayed
I could not move
As the wind tried to
My heart started to feel hard
As it slowly broke apart
Still I sat still like nothing happened
As all the pain I swallowed
Til nothing could hurt anymore than what I already feel inside
And no one to confide
This is the fact of life
That with every pain we wish for lies
The clouds turned grey today
It is going to rain.

The light shadowed the fear in my eyes
A hope that within my heart lies
Still I stand before you
Wishing you could see me too
Yet every time I do
You never take the bother to look
Tears that begged to be evaded
The spark just ended
Realizing that you'll never look my way
Still I hope for a someday
That two eyes will meet
And make the impossible be.

The old lamp has yet not fade
Trying to reminisce that day
Sadness that cannot be measured
The sight of him only is just no pleasure
I want to go back and turn back time
Go back to the starting line
Wanting to not let you go
Craving to let you hold me close
Just being selfish a bit
Just wanting my heart to be fit
If only dreams could happen
If only memories would not end
I wanted to take your hand
But somewhere in me told me I never can
If only I followed my heart
If only I wasn't afraid to let anyone hurt
There would have been a me and you
Now there's nothing I can do.

Days have passed silently
The heart aches silently
Does time really heal all the pain?
When through the way bumps are all that came
What is love?
Why can't the answer be none of the above?
Every hurt, tear and lie
Was it all that ever passes by?
We had that fire once
Now cold is all that counts
When can love be free?
When can I go back to thee?
Nights have flown quickly
The heart crushes slowly
Letting go is always the escaping track
Love can only hold back.

Sitting still under a sunny day
I could not help but notice your sad face
I held your hand
But it was not mine that you want

Seeing the pain in your eyes
Heal them I wanted to try
Though I know that I could not do
Tears of pain are in my eyes too

You once said that I was the perfect friend and never want to change
Yet in my heart I always hope it was not the same
All I could do was hold my feeling down
And hide the pain in my heart as it pounds

You cried as I held your hand
Though I know it will never be mine that you want
Your tears make the beat of my heart want to end
But I could always only comfort you as a friend

Sitting still under a sunny day
Without nothing to say
I held your hand
Hoping someday it will be the one you want

Standing at the edge of the bridge
Wondering what lies at the other end of it
Wanting to take a step ahead
Yet it still isn't time, he said.

Every minute of a day just grows longer
My heart is always beating stronger
Waiting and always hoping
Can I ever stop falling?

The sun set and rose
Still, I'm waiting in the cold
Finally closing my eyes
Into the wind, I let myself fly

I was falling
Trying my best for someone to hear my calling
Tears were my only friend
Will it be so till the end?

Just when I had given up all hopes
A hand from above was thrown
And at one blink, he caught me
Jesus had held me finally

He had heard my call
And was only waiting to give up my all
"I will never let go," he said
Up until the end.

The footsteps kept replaying in my ear
As my heart starts to beat rapidly
Tears form out of fear
Afraid to be left behind again

Yet what is done is done
Those footsteps would not come back
They will always be a memory of leaving
A painful and agonizing experience

But in a moment where I am lost
I try to find his face
And maybe I can see him coming back to me
Those footsteps were not leaving but coming home

Time passes by still I am in the past
Lingering to find the lost
Yet the footsteps start to fade away
And his face starts to blur

Where will I find them
I don’t want them to leave
Like the footsteps that left
Don’t let its sound leave me too

Till finally I saw your face
And heard your footsteps
Yet as I stood in front of you
Like the wind, I was only passed by

And as I look at your shadow leaving
With the same footsteps leaving once again
Amidst it all I found calmness
And felt my hand waving goodbye

The shadow, the footsteps and his face
They always leave me
But this time they finally bid farewell
And I did so too

The fear won't surpass again
It has come to haunt the already lost souls
What more could be lost?
A sea of wonder lies ahead

Was time running out too fast?
Yet in this still moment
It lasts forever
The fear that will never leave

The heart hurts what the eyes could see
No trembling but only agony
Does the sun have to hide all the time
When all of the fears come out

The everlasting blankets of the sky
Seem to be blinded by the sorrows of the night
For what pains inside
Could not never be healed from the out

Three hundred sixty five days has passed
Still under the tree I wait
I would no more dare to ask
To myself that is fading away

When did the sky turn gray?
Or are my eyes simply losing it
A memory of each day
Slowly weakens a heartbeat

This is a battle
And it is your final last call
As to pieces I shatter
can you make it... before I fall

The night is young when I first saw him.
The roaring wind blinded my sight yet I could still picture his shadow.
What can I do to avoid this feeling?
What can I do to hide my emotions?
This is wrong yet I can not heed to what is right.
His love stalks my heart like it has none of its own.
His breath so cold I could feel it down my spine.
His lips red as apple is too hard to resist.
His sparkling blue eyes hypnotize my soul. T
he warmth of his body devours my whole being.
What can I do to take away this passion?
What can I do to not love him even when each breath of his is my life?
I cannot pull myself away from him.
What is this love that I’ve never felt before?
Who is he to make me want him badly?
I am losing my sanity each time I feel his touch though I feel complete happiness.
He has become my obsession, one that I cannot live without.
This forbidden love is killing me slowly.
Could a woman want a man so much in her life?
Is she willing to give up everything for a him?
Am I willing to lose it all for a love I am not sure of the worth?
How can this love be such enigmatic?
Why do I feel this blissful pain?
The night is young when I saw him.
The roaring wind blinded my sight yet my heart knew where to find him.
A love so wrong…
This love full of pain…
Where can it lead?
When my heart shatters… will he be there to save it?

My soul finds rest in his arms
Just like how the breeze of the air calms
I knew it from the start
One day we will be apart
I want to refuse you
But my heart doesn't want to
Oh how my heart suffers
The pain no one can cover
You had to go alone
For where you're going is not my home
Will I ever again see your face?
Will I ever again feel your embrace?
Will you ever come back?
Will someone ever contain my lack?
My only wish is for you not to forget me
For one day I believe, together we'll be free.

The wind started to play with my hair
Trying to wipe away the tears
As I sat down on the bed of rocks
My hearts slowly feeling afraid

The river that does not stop flowing
Like life that goes on without care
Whether pain swallows everything
And left with nothing to hold on

The skies could tell what I feel inside
And for the millionth time I wanted to shout
All of the feelings that was kept within
Still I always fail

The wind starts to fade
The river starts to dry
The sky starts to disappear
I remain here in the bed of rocks.

A broken heart has yet again fallen
Pain that releases too much tears
Desperate to search again for that haven
And hide away from all the fears
The sight of the heart a whole for another
The broken one can only disappear
No more to call a shelter
For both no longer stays here

Shattered into pieces
It's time to say goodbye to the memories.

It's strange now to look into his eyes
Suddenly you forget all his lies
Love is back in the air
Yet you don't know if he really cares
You want to love him again
But criticism is always on them
By the time you've finally given up
And moving on is on game's top
He confesses his love
Giving up all the above
Hearing his heart's cry
You'd never expect he'd die.

Two strings of souls intertwined
Without being permitted by the mind
Destiny works its way
Making no chance to sway

Star crossed lives
Glancing in each other’s eyes
Knowing without knowing
Both hearts were aching

Her smile
Her laugh
Both seem of truth
Yet hide so many lies

For that one smile
Two strings of souls intertwined
Pain has shared its way
Without even giving a welcome

A light that sparked
A light that never started
Both held on to the same line
Without knowing how to let go

When the tide had already washed away
The light that long was faded