i feel weak,
drained,
but i haven't done anything all day,
i've slept for half of the week.

trying to keep my eyes open,
you're sleeping the summer away,
get up out of bed,
go outside and play.

Looking back on old memories,
I can never forget.
You're in every single one,
I won't ever forget.
Did you truly believe I would?
After everything we've been through?
Do you understand the impact you had?
Have you ever thought I may not have wanted to let you go?
Ever wondered why I refuse to forget?

I want inside.
These windows, sealed shut with silence, keep me foreign.
Im supposed to smile with familiarity.
& smile i do.

My organs bleed, & my roses bloom.

- Mandy Hayes.

Lots of times
I tend to
Forget
Everything is real.

Tonight, I am torn again
Because I am who I am.
And because I am me,
I am judged for it.

Tonight, I am torn again,
Because I talk to
Voices in my head
And I can't sleep or seem to eat

Tonight I am torn again
Because I seem to have lost a friend
I know I must not be mad
Yet there seems to be no end

I don't want to answer questions
Oh those I've had enough,
Would you please, please,
Just let me be tonight because

Tonight, I am torn again.