i know
i may not live up
to your
expectations
small
curious
open
kind of like a
book
but please don’t
bash me
with your words
because i am a step
on the staircase
you are still climbing
and at 70
you will smile back
at me
and remember
the innocent heart
you once shamed

i know
the waves of your mind
are racing
and you don't feel
like you can catch up
but,
the slits on your arms won’t
heal the slits in your heart
instead, look for the fragments
of constellations through seconds
so many connections
some of laughter
some of pain
most of love
you have a place in this
globe of beings
you just forgot for a second
so dive
like you dive into your mind
into the world in front of you

intuition
is your inclination
"don't burden them"
you have to hold out
your own hands
do not reach out
keep your flooding thoughts
behind the doors
for if you open them
they will drown
and you will be
alone

who made the rule
that unconditional love
is unaccepted
uncommon
unknown
some hearts beat
louder than others
so how is it fair to them?
too much
too little
too real

connectedness
is the aspiration of your being
adjacent hearts are the
only priority
but
the falsifier of your brain
makes you endure the weight
of forged disregard
"you aren't their world"
but you know it's a lie
for all humans are the same
connectedness
is their existence

"embrace the change"
but how do you embrace
the pain?
different is an alteration
i was not ready to face
offset emotions
offset mind
where are the things i know?
im bound to find out
that those things only exist
in the past
but for now
"embrace the change"
cause it can't all be bad

a loyal heart
is ripped
over and over
for most aren’t as loyal
but they always run back
to trust
like an addiction
they can’t undo
certitude is necessary
but rarely achieved

a loyal heart
is mended
over and over
just in time
to rebound the loyalty
it wishes for in
return