When i was 6, i wanted to be something i completely made up in my head.. A 'space ninja pirate undercover superhero with wizardry powers' of some sort, and so i became just that.

&When; i was 10, i grew out of that and grew into the idea of being just an 'ordinary girl' with ordinary clothes and ordinary hair, no extraordinary powers of any sort, and so i became just ordinary.

But when I was 12, i grew tired of being like everyone else. I wanted to create something original for myself. And so i took a pen and an old Disney notepad and wrote all my random daydreams down, and so i became a dreamer and that was that.

However, at 14. I started to care a little too much. Gave my heart away freely and brought myself cheap love. My hair was far too ordinary and my imagination was far too weird,
' if i don't start shaving now, by 16 i'll have a beard ' and so self conscious i became, and that was that for that year.

Now i'm at 16, and i'm starting NOT to care, my daydreams have got me this far and i embrace my messy hobo like hair.. It's tricky though.
'Cause if i were to be honest, i'd say this;;
At 16, i want to touch people with my words but not become a 'poet'
I want people to relate to my music but i don't want to be a musician
I want to get over my depression
But i dont want to feel perfect
I kinda want to run away
But at the same time i want to always have a reason to stay.

Falling, like Autumn
and landing swiftly
on top of a pile of freshly baked dreams,
Crunch goes my heart
crumbling like leaves

Jumping into fantasies,
like fishing for rubber ducks
What's my point you ask,
I don't know where to start

I'm spinning around like a hurricane
Watch Out
I'm a runaway

... But it's okay

You see I've been walking around like the ground
is my skateboard
and I'm so chilled and satisfied with the life that I'm riding on'
so perhaps I don't need to hold on to anything or anyone anymore,
and maybe it's time to chuck the helmet away,
'cause I've already made it this far somehow

Heck, I don't need looking after
'cause I'm my safe haven now

I thought i'd write another poem,
Another letter.
Containing some of those 'sweet, sweet words' which could potentially
Keep me in love with this girl forever.

But forever's soon gonna be over and done with..
Within a single heartbeat,
See I fear we'll fade like broken smiles slipping from  our tender lips

And between the space of now and forever,
During this infinite yet tiny infinity
My heart will beat for every time she breathes, for every time these sad eyes and hers meet,
Falling deeper in between the sheets of all our crinkled memories

Sometimes our past likes to play peek a boo with us, and that i won't deny, scares the poopsicles out of me!
Though often I find myself wondering if she misses her younger self,
Or misses the vision of who she wanted to be

.. Well for what it's always worth mandy,
Let me tell you,
She's the most beautiful soul i've had the privilege to be mates with
And you ask me what she looks like?
Hm i'm not even sure if the dictionary would be able to describe her qualities without blushing.
.. And that was a weird use of personification but i think i'll keep going

Its not just her long layered hair,
Which, Like blank pages of a book,
Both are kept in such perfect condition, and are handled with care

It's not the way she presents herself as humble yet confident
When the microphones in front of her mouth,
And the guitars wrapped around her body like a hug i'll always miss

It's the simplicity of her smile, the way she's so effortless when she aims it at every single person, coming towards her, in every single direction....

And i follow her also,
..in  her footsteps i mean,
To be that one step closer to my own hopes and dreams
And it's her voice i'd listen out for
Whenever i'm flashing back to more scarier dreams

Oh what a beautiful muse i have,
What a way to love her.