The New Kestrel: Favorites

Oct 2013 The New Kestrel

R

i thought i could handle
not being yours but when
trying to describe why i
feel the way i do i just
completley breakdown.

i tried describing your eyes
to someone who has never had the
beautiful chance to be in your vicinity and
i could barely get through to the
part of where i compare thy
eyes to an ocean after a
strong storm.

what should i do?
its easier now to be around you but
should i even try?
you've picked me up and brought out my
wings but can i really fly?

oh dear, please tell me because
i'll drown without you here.
im drowning in the ocean that is
you and im not sure if i should
cry out in fear.

maybe im better off in a
kiddie pool.

****.

Oct 2013 The New Kestrel

Relative Questions

Oct 2013 The New Kestrel

kenye

Relative Questions

Are you OK?*
I lack my own approval most days.

Why haven't you been eating?
It's a spiritual fast.

Why have you been isolating yourself?
I'm trying to formulate a plan to save the world.
Somehow.

Any thoughts of hurting yourself?
What's life without a few battle scars?

What are your triggers?"
That's a very loaded question...

Oct 2013 The New Kestrel

To All the Ones I Knew Forever

Oct 2013 The New Kestrel

Alex Apples

To All the Ones I Knew Forever

You can know someone for a lifetime,
only for them to tear you apart
You can know someone for a little while,
and have them heal your heart

Love is not blind -
time is relative.

I knew this one boy for years.
He was my best friend.
He would never shatter me.
He did.

I knew this other one my entire life.
He was like a brother.
He would never disappear.
He did.

I knew this man for a little while.
He was like a stranger.
He could never love me.
He does.

I'm not bitter anymore
at the ones I knew forever
the ones I loved before.

All I know is
you never really know
the soul under the skin
when they keep it hidden.

And forever is a long time
to get to know someone
when they bare their soul
for you to break instead
if you so chose.

Sep 2013 The New Kestrel

Homecoming Dance

Sep 2013 The New Kestrel

R

Homecoming Dance

everyone was dancing
having fun
not caring about
anything.
but i stood still,
scared of the voices,
feeling like i didn't
fit in.

when he bent
down to kiss me,
i pulled back.
i felt bad but....
i just couldn't.

all i do is hurt people
and I'm so sick of it.
i cant even be happy
at my own homecoming
dance.

he told me to have
a good time because
everything gets better.
but they don't,
its only for a little
while that
they do.

i cried and relapsed the other night because i knew this would happen. i just knew.