Hollowness in my chest
Devouring my soul
Threatening to
Eat me whole.

**** me now
The voice is back
A moment of pain
All fades to black

My smile, my happiness, it's all a bluff
We know I was never good enough
Never worth a moment of anyone's time
My life is as pointless as this stupid rhyme
I get it now, I can finally see.
There's always someone better than me.
What good am I? I have no worth
I do no good, being here on earth.
My life is pointless, a waste of time
Like everything I've done, including this rhyme

My poems aren't just words I wrote.
They aren't like a novel, a story or quote.
My poems are small bits of my soul.
If I deleted them, I'd not be whole.
They tell of times when my heart would sting,
and the times it was made to sing.
My poems are memories, immortalized,
gone over again, and analyzed.
They're a measure of me, of my life, my heart,
and the closest I get, to creating art.

Right now my mind wanders to the words we once shared
To the days when I knew how, to let her know I cared
Maybe the words don't exist, that say how I'm feeling now
Because if the words do exist, then I really don't know how.
But she's still a perfect angel, so beautiful and smart
My stomach still feels twisted, from the times we had to part
But the message I want her to know, words cannot convey
But I still have to try, because this is something I need to say
So don't you dare forget Ade, the way you feel right now
You might not be able to say it yet, but one day you may know how.

I didn't even get, a real goodbye
So I'll spend forever just wondering why.
Why I was never good enough for you
Why you weren't happy when it was just us two
Why wasn't I worth a goodbye?
Why wasn't I worth another try?

I looked at the water as I sat on the sand
There in the place where I once held your hand.
I thought about you, and I made my choice
And in my head I heard your voice
You spoke of the things that we once had
But now that you are gone I am going mad.
What happened to that future with you and me?
What happened to all the things we were meant to be?
What happened to the promises, the hopes, the dreams?
Now I sit alone trying to muffle my screams.
Because I had finally gone and chosen you
If only I had know you wouldn't choose me too.

Time passes, but memories don't fade
As I look back at the messes I made
How has no one realized, I don't deserve to live?
Even I, want me to die...I've nothing left to give
I've ruined everything that ever went well
Just let me say goodbye, and then I'll go to hell