Why does it always end this way?
Knife in hand to take the pain away.
Every part of me just wants to die
Because yet again I've made her cry
I can't keep living without her
But things are no longer as they were
She has no time for me anymore
I no longer make her go 'aww'
Now tonight may be my last
I'm missing the days gone past
If she reads this then I'm sorry
I did not mean to make you worry
I just need to die.

I'm not living for me any more
Not for the reasons I was living before
I'm only keep living, cause she'll cry if I don't
But part of me's awaiting, the day when she won't
So I can leave this world behind
and end the pain that's clouding my mind.

You have her, with her gorgeous smile
all I have, is denial.
You have her, with her enticing laugh
I haven't a heart, not even a half.
You have her, with her angelic voice
I haven't even got a choice.
You have her, she's perfect, it's true
and she doesn't want me, cause she's got you.
So she's left me, with a terrible curse
because she still inspires, my poetic verse.
You have her, so ****, so hot
and me? Well poetry is all I've got.

To end it all, to end your life
for there's no point, beyond the strife.
Ended by bullet or blade or rope
for there is nothing to give you hope.

All that seems good, it's a pack of lies
well...except perhaps her gorgeous eyes,
her perfect laugh, her cute wee smile
and those things you forgot for a while

So don't you do it, don't end your life
just see the good, beyond your strife.

Oh they know nothing, that's plain to see
Oh they know nothing, of what it's like to be me
They know nothing of these thoughts in my head
They know nothing of how, I wish to be dead
of how I dream, of bloodshed, of ****** of winning
of how different I am, then I was when beginning.

And don't let them, not in my head
Why bother them, with my hopes of being dead?
Better to keep them, and have no-one know
then have my great weakness, out there on show
That'll remain secret, even after goodbye
to be buried with me, on the day that I die

11:11, forever with you
Forever to do, the things we do
I wish for eternity, with your hands in mine
Mmm, now there's a prospect that sounds divine.

11:11 forever with you
Oh how I wish, this wish could come true.

So now I sing a sad lullaby, wondering if anyone will cry?
I really, highly doubt they will, I doubt they'll even try
If only you knew how I was in so much pain
But you don’t, So now, red tears will fall again
I will grab my knife and set it against my skin
All the pain will go far away as soon as I begin
Dark red liquid drops from me to the floor
My arm goes numb, I fall against the door
But I continue slashing away
I am not in pain, not today
I feel so alive now, it's the greatest of highs
As a red light flashes before my eyes,
I feel more alive than I ever have before
I stagger to the bathroom, going past my door
Leaving a trail of red I get into the bath
My blood was dripping, it formed a path
For inside I was already dead
Inside my body, and in my head
Dead inside from the scars you left behind
I just draw them to skin, take them out of mind
But it's about now, that I don’t care
Blood flows from my body, I'm beyond repair
I close my eyes, I feel so cold
It is time, I will not grow old
I can feel my heart rate slowing
My breath leaving, my life-force going

Then. I. am. Gone. Goodbye