Does the pain lingers
Even if you washed it through
Does the flashback hurts
Forcing you to remember it all

A scar is going to appear.

How hideous it is going to be carved on your skin
How bitter the memory you will reminisce

But no matter what,
You have won against your fear.

m.i

I hate myself for my tragic past
I hate myself for cutting every inches of my skin
I hate myself for letting people go in and out of my life easily
I hate myself for pushing people out of my life
I hate myself for not having someone to talk to
I hate myself for not having the love I earned for
I hate myself for eating too much
I hate myself for giving a smile to random strangers
I hate every part of me and I wish someone could burn me alive
Because I don't see any point of living anymore.

Madre.
She always has this thought that everything i eat is not good/haraam.
Because unlike her, i rarely go to local restaurants and eat local food.
She always has this thought that every weird words I used has a ****-like meaning.

Madre.
I've been living with you for 18 years and still.
Yet you still have no idea who I am.
Don't you?

I cried at midnight
Knowing that I feel sorry for myself
For all the things I have done
People repay my kindness with *******
I apologize for the things I have done
Because I know whatever I do, it's never enough
I hate myself too much or not at all

Our love is laid bare
It's always here
Every kiss
Every gaze
Is enough
To keep me smiling
For endless days
Your bed is my happy place
Cuddles until the sun shines
Something rare and sweet
You sweep me off my feet