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Tyler Mar 2022
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I still fail to
not do things for others over
myself.
Dedicating words to
special people.
I'm trying to love myself solely for once,
but I find the writers of
my life
are the one's
my mind's love
goes to, but I hold the pen.

Is that not loving myself?
When an unrequited hate for thy is met with a fiery excellence,
who protects thou in that exchange?
the cold embrace of night
that meets like
sheer edge on tender vital muscle?
the venomous tongue siphoning, spitting, to erode on sacred loyalty?
the nervous white rabbit in need of the slightest comforting space?
the abused puppy barking off advancements?
the cat hissing away touch?

heaven's coushined cloud?
embraced coat of arms?
love and all its subsidaries?
8/5/2022 edit - line 11: control - hold
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Tyler Apr 2022
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it's funny.
the worst influence on my life,
introduced me to the best influence
on my life.
by mere days that we had met.

they even shared the same name.
how poetic is that ?
reality of black and white,
and the grey i meshed into.
relationships are difficult
this is about me
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Tyler Jan 2022
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the epitome of transcendental solitude; my ego: the poet's world; contracted from loss. recently kept silent to others; exchanging ignorance for their bliss.

the intimacy of an open door,
i now often close.
ignore this stifling depressing room
and all of its redeemable charm.
Tyler Mar 2023
u'd leave letters
gifts and loves
and they'd be
taken from the
spot u had put them
by the next morning
thrown away by the next nights 🙄
Tyler Oct 2022
I dance with the pen;
it leaves my hands all
inky.
Tyler Mar 2022
some building of something new
was still of me and you.
Tyler Jun 2022
every flower
happily sways
after a rainstorm.
Tyler Aug 2022
our heart -
as colossal
as the sky, as
horizoned as
the eyes,
as fragile and
nebulous
as light,
that cracks hotter
than lightning.
Tyler Apr 2022
I never want to hurt anyone.
Ive been told I nick those closest
with my razor hands.
Ive been told.

I let go of everything I can,
trying to finally take responsibility
for my own happiness,
where I find I am gifted with it.

I don't owe my past behaviors'
behaviors any favor. I don't
owe a thing to this world;
not a single explanation of this
violent carnation that holds
a true peace that is abated.
I pull away from the factor of 'other',
I push toward the sense of 'similiar'.

I owe myself the decency
of something that was
actually meant for us all.
To be happy, in its entire glory.
Today, I say, I can and wish to gift it
as much as it is gifted back to me.
Tyler Feb 2022
let me be the moment you're chasing?
if they were old or new,
the pearl
i rechieved
from the blue-
i can share with you.
if i were the moment you had chased, id stop so sprightly to stupefy you to then twist you in piroutte-
the atmosphere would tornado with God's youthing loving charmful dust.
a moment ive been chasing, the spirits all caged within the illustrious dance of a daring engagement.
the spirits that could fight to their last breath,
but instead could then choose to love.
a picture frame of some war, i realize,
i hope to accomplish again.
with a wealthy heart
in a healthy peace.

the spitting kiss of a waterfall
lovingly showers my face in the
whole saturation of sweetness.
it lands on my lips,
and now my leap turns to a dive
into its bountiful warming ponds
i used to rest next to;
a scarce place, our comfort pierced
through any encumbrance.
Tyler Nov 2022
Some things
are in the
past and some
'aren't'.
It seems we
get to choose which.

Don't you know
a shadow can cast in front of you ?
Do you search for the curses,
or for the blessings,
or do you pick every cherry needed in 'tween ?
Trapped within time's
hellish gaze ?
Or
are you freed by eternal
sunrises ?
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Tyler Mar 2022
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it feels like hate
when i view myself
through your eyes.
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Tyler Apr 2022
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you're just a plot of the heart,
conning my soul to stories you
didn't or couldn't tell better.

subjugatting with pity, all because we believe you to be more than you are.

this is not revenge.
we do still believe.
sadly i can not be led anymore
by a plan so rooted in the pessimistic past.

optimism in the current:
the present of life; surfing the waves of time happy.

believe in its guiding hand with faith unwavered by the destined life we
must lead to death, it being good or bad. Accept your selfs, with love we will all heal.
i can't even put a pin on myself,
you think you could or can?

we constantly evolve
Tyler Apr 2022
the internet is a silent cry for true connection.
a a
Tyler Nov 2021
what else was i supposed to think
when life gave me this rosary
that inflicted me a rash
Tyler Apr 2023
You're a better me
       than I could hope to be
So I'll learn from lesser
       reads that in which I see
Reaching for what is we,
       for there we fly like free
i feel the love.
Tyler Apr 2023
there's a
monster that they make of me,
but they're in the dim light
in casks of shadows.
Tyler Dec 2022
I thought I saw her dancing-

in between all the other little dance girls.
Her face looked kind of like yours.

Her heart was as pure as precious as pretty.
She moved confidently with vigor, control, and the power of grace, she had practiced for weeks.
You could tell with just a look she knew what she was doing.
She smiled through it all, her team were coordinated.
Arms up here, high kick there. One step where, next step with care.
The edge of an ice skater, the pen of an artist.

The music stopped and the applause roared.
She hugged her friends and they were beaming with
Christmas and Hanukkah.
It was beautiful, and I tried not to clap past any child's parent.

Because truth be told, I hadn't seen her performance just yet.
Nonetheless- I felt her, and I loved her no matter the same.
For time would tell her story to me.
Tyler Nov 2022
my mind sleeps in darkness
and is awake to the radiant sunlights
of the living reality.
Tyler Mar 2022
you hate me so dearly.
anger from something so cherished.
its cheery smile would enrage your flame.
its darker soul is not to blame
and pity speaks volumes of one's own shame.
Tyler May 2022
eyes whom love the world
as much as had hated it
are the most enchanting.
Tyler Jul 2022
is it possible to cry all your tears ?
  or do each calcify the eye's
fountain's callous
in deem of survival ?
drowning in saline.
  how do I pick this scab
without bleeding out ?
i know it stings,
but it longfully hurts
to be a wight in
my love's delicate eyes.

my heart reaches out
and welcomes anything if
it bring me closer to their
comforting light and kind haven.
Tyler Apr 2022
i am insanely privileged
by my position,
by my status,
by my race,
but mostly
by my experience.

raising others
to their potential
fills me with the largest
sense of fufillment.
Tyler Mar 2022
I'D NEVER USE YOU AGAINST
YOURSELF.
Tyler Nov 2023
if you're gentle and kind
a harmful past will resign
a medic's touch
a trustee to fall into
a shoulder to cry
a name you can call upon
a love that you must
Tyler Aug 2019
Girls in the airport
Are, for some reason, hotter
Than anywhere else
I dont know why
Tyler Dec 2022
the metal casket.
a machine pyre.
the ceremonial sky imparting smoke
pushed upward with each and every
of deep gray plume where they screened
into the brilliant white channeling clouds.
Tyler Jan 2022
old friends and family like bullet hole wounds,
i have to bandage every day.
but like a *******,
or all too picky,
never allow to heal fully.
they are who made me.
the scars that are the body's story
i wear as prideful as metals.
and square my shoulders in front for their betters,
the angels i find grasping my shoulders in their solidarity.
Tyler Nov 2021
my heart only has so much room
so much drive to keep going.

my skin only tears at the turmoil.
my tears, puffs of sand

my soul. My spirit
weeps.
bleeds.

i dont think anything could amount to reconcilation for hell i sat alone.

i dont think i can sit here any longer
Tyler Aug 2022
I took a walk with God tonite.
She was as bright and lovely as the streetlights, as misty and ominious as the nightly grass, and as beautiful as the stars.
Sometimes she liked to be like the constellations, sometimes she liked to be like him, but this night- they all had embraced. I never would have to let that go.

I took a drive with God. We sang to the top of our lungs; all of our little love songs. It sounded like death- slashing strings, clashing cymbals, and vicious vocals- but we knew it to be peace. We talked of our horrible driving as we let our hand steer the wheel. The silence between songs was welcomed, *****, and nothing more than yearned for. We filled it with lovely daydream.

I took a chance with God. I looked up and heard the wisdom in their name every day. I cashed in my faith, I let go the err to the air, and I offered and reached for hands in hopes they'd take it too. I followed his lead and weathered his storm and I found calm between. A sailor whistling with each and every wave.

Part of God died what feel like some decade ago.
She my loss, my gain, my grief, my strife, my pain.
My lack of spirit,
my loving endearance.
She- my determination, my heart, my unwavering image.
My mother.
My child.
He- my north star, my guardian angel, my astral shepherd.
My father.
My wild.
It- my compass and my map and my path stained with tears.
My mind.
My truth.
My guide to divine.
Stood alone, I hear it, I taste it, I smell it, I see it, I feel it.
They- my love, my family, my word, my God, my soul-
but entirely,
my self.
Tyler Apr 2023
when my mom passed
i used to listen to the
ambient wildernesses
while i was off to sleeping.
crickets and windscapes,
ocean waves and raining water.
echoes from somewhere else.
it filled the room, and i drifted
to lands away where it was
calm as i could be, and i slept
soundly.

Bring me back to safety,
bring me back to my
sanctuary.
( dreamy )
Tyler Mar 2022
touch my finger to the poetry of your dance enriched
in my flowery sentence of hips.
in motion with the sound we can both sing;
slowly, a dancer is loved- and a dancer I'd hope we all will be.
Tyler Aug 2022
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tall grass
ticks crawl
deep ponds
leeches lurk
high mountain
breath tighten
wet mud
sock dampens
clear sky
clouds wander
~~

in soft nature
the beast resides.
Tyler Oct 2021
the song of nature's brilliant notes

leaves brush off their nearest friend
and scrape to each beat of the tree's heart

the birds call to their be-loved
across mirror edged pond that
one bad step would shatter to an infinite well clearly seen as the night sky on this canvas of water
duck gandolas traverse its scape heeding the way for the pack behind
bravely spreading the heavens within their wake

yet the bugs, how they produce sound so freely
serene strings relay a contingence of something familiar
a home of nightlights strung by wings flittering, generating the fire inside for
not only themselves but I.
i hear their tongue again

but it costs as little to all to listen
Tyler Apr 2022
stories that are
     spin
        spun
like spider webs
sticking the spots
stringing to connect the dots
of straight-forward-thinking.

sacredness cries: insight may lie where our logic blinds.
insects pry
the larger picture,
so hypnotized,
all to become but the dots that have died and were left behind.

a larger mosiac of victims;
pixels stuck in sticky ichor.
an image, an illusion, all of some darker decrepit deeper demise.

bygone begone.
the predator's amuse
of a nature's refute
to abuse anymore lives;
for it cares so beautifully to be kind.

in life's hike, i use a stick to swat that structure from sticking to my eyes.
Tyler Nov 2022
the birds hover
and trust their
partners'
planes
as they parallel
a beautiful dance
through the air.

soaring and exciting broadly cutting swirls,
quick transductive sudden
stopping stammers,
daring divebombs and swifter recoveries,
gliding floating hovers to a view of a glimmering expanse.
Tyler May 2022
the snakes venom
like ink
through my skin
shows temptation
and freedom
can be lead
under false intention.
Tyler Nov 2023
I don't care what they think of me,
I only care what you think.

Would you walk with me ?
The path before us,
allow us to hurt with eachother ?

What makes the world go around ?
Nothing but love.
Christmas is right around the corner.
and you and me,
the star on the tree-
make my little blue heaven
a reality
Tyler Dec 2021
ive been so lonesome,
a weak movement will illicit
a pair of twitches
just to shame me in knowing im alone.

my body center
scratching vinyl
burrowing questions
all stabbing in to me
pitting cycles of noise
rhytmically cutting my form
in periodic rest
toying on what you expect

with no relief
feel just as scathed
the burns have left
my form shaken
Tyler Nov 2021
crippling thunder
light crackling shock
back and forth
tense to untense
afterward the brand
of the forsaken burns
Tyler Dec 2021
"i lost my angels"
starry nights
the last semblance
of heaven i find

twinkling
pinholes of dreamy glory;
for what lies behind the nightly veil
but light.


nightly bright
silent sights
brightly night

like a quiet drifting kite
a falling star wishes despite
i think i could cry forever
Tyler Oct 2021
i want this year to be happy
my last two were so devoid
Tyler May 2023
She's a dreamboat
  in the tunnel of love,
      white lightning like white wine,
  fluorescent lights in purple rain;
a deep crazy,
     an even deeper affection.
  her love is like magic,
      we're enthralled in
             respect.
    She is good, she is better,
      my favorite, and my best.
        my heart, the reason,
             why it beats in my chest.
Tyler Mar 2023
the prophets could hear God
through the lightning,
the clouds, or anything the air
could reach.
the poets were there to document
the magistrate
of those excellence
captured
in the word
seen.
Tyler Apr 4
Immersed in your story,
   you can't see outside,
rehearsed in this glory,
what does mine hide ?
you wanna believe
you're broken,
  you'll be broken.

Just because it feels normal
does not mean it is.
I couldn't desribe
my reality, I've tried.
Why do these
images keep popping up in
my mind ?
Who is trying
to tell me
something,
why,
and which
are lies ?

I wish I knew it all,
to know how to
handle anything best,
I try to stand tall,
I'd still give it up
to be just anything less.

I wish I knew anything.
I wish I knew anything.
I wish I knew anything.
Tyler Oct 2022
women are like poetry-
they speak profusely profound
in or between their lines,
they can be deep like Hell or
miraculous like Heaven,
and they empower me
greatly to make this love .

my longest poem
titled 'eternity'
has been written
in finding
when to better
understand or to
better surrender
myself to poetry's craft.
and when is it that I would ever find exactly what it is about her that affects me so true ?
Tyler Aug 2023
I need some beautiful poetry
The ones that write themself

Who's there to make it easy
Make it shine
To make it rhyme

Am I even worthy
of a poem of such magnitude?
Writing poetry can be so difficult..
Tyler Oct 2022
he molded the sculptures
with no one but the models in mind.
    they were angelic.
       and he took a
            picture.
   the marble was unchanging-
     regal. he thought that if they ever
needed to remember who they were
      through whoever they are
    they could look up to their own past's excellent
      persona pillars.

and there they still stand
  in any other market squares or musuems,
      leading us on one of some
  principle,
    until they are felled by
         those that are going
             through more of similiar stories.
Tyler May 2022
in the process of finding myself
it seems i am losing everyone.
looks are decieving.
the pain my loneliness bides
is nothing to the hole left in me
from death.
God gives us all in which we can handle.
redemption is always viable in life.
when you know true loss' mark it is easily seen.
they could seek redeeming, i won't stop them.
Tyler Mar 2022
ive never heard a more scary statement,
"i'll be there after they're gone.".
its the threat of death in when one gets detrimentally complacent.
but sometimes
it could be sunshine past a dreary tragedy,
like i have found it always to have been.
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