A part of me sees things "logically" I guess.

Theres distance between us literally and metaphorically.

Metaphorically theres distance between us so why not accept that and let it go?

Literally theres distance between us so theres nothing we can do about it and we can't work on things because of it so why not let it go?

But another part of me is so mad at you.
Why aren't you looking for me?
Why aren't you fighting of us?
Where is your grand gesture?
and I question wether you really loved me.

You are my calling, a piece of me,
My world in another life and just a taste in this one.
So if you go, it would be a cruel joke.

Heartbreak feels a little better than before.
Although if I lose you, I will lose all purpose.
But alteast this time, when I cry,
A small sense of optimism and pleasure resurfaces.
For this feeling is familiar. Therefore I know I'll make it out alive.
Still I love you hard. I don't want to lose you.

1 glass of wine is never enough
although it feels so good
1 more, 2 more assures the feeling will stay a while longer
The feeling of self love, inspiration and optimism.
I plan out the perfect encounter in my mind
You find me irresistible, yet we rush nothing
Because the anticipation entertained by words is more satisfying.
But oh the feeling when we finally do it.
Will it be like hot fire?
I believe so.

I'm tired. My eyes hurt and I want to go to sleep
But Im scared. Im scared of the space between the darkness in the room and my eyes closing shut because thats when my mind stabs my heart with a dagger the hardest

To love without fear; what a virtue
I care so much, but I cant show it
Even if I tried, a force pulls me back
my mind goes blank, I have nothing to say
when I am away from you the right words pour in
How simple for you to hold me or say something sweet
Maybe if  said the right things you'd understand
But words wont do what actions will
I just cant. too jaded, too scared.
I am frozen

You took all I had without a chance to reel you in,
you were gone before I knew it