I charged myself up
Just for you to drain me
You seemed to ignore my sincerity
And dismissed my efforts
You walked all over my dignity
I felt pain in every ******* step

There were times when I used to spark your light
Now that the room is dark, it must mean that its time to let me go
You drank up all of my energy
Now I feel so powerless

A chaotic mix of flesh and consiousness is what I am
A well balanced routine of procrastination and stressing out later is my life
A mixture of sob and snoring is my sleep
Painful and barely bareable is the pressure
And insecure but narcissistic is my personality
Thats me, ig? What about you

The only warmth i feel is from my blanket

Be a star in the night sky

Ill watch you shine

Glowing ever so brilliantly

Even better with some time

Light up the empty canvas

(You in the air tonight★)
Supernova in the sky

untouchable i stand
uncontrollable i live
unforgettable is the memory
unforgivable is you

impossible is forgiveness
improper is your attitude
inappropriate is your actions
insane is gonna be me

decomposing is my soul

i seek the pleasure in pain
?
society gives me a shot of morphine

i cant even feel pain?

~

(
cant feel life

hurt me if it makes you happy
i feel nothing
)

why is life worth living
why does everyone scramble to keep alive
i feel like a leftover
maybe thats why ive discarded myself
refusing to live is a disorder apparently
help me find order in the chaos

ill never be good enough for the life given to me