what have we done?
lying gets us nowhere
and now we are in deep.

i am not sure how to feel
or how to react but i know
that nothing good will come
from this.

i feel so strongly about you
and try to show it.
maybe you are just blind
or maybe i am just
making too many excuses for you.

i don't deserve this, i have done
nothing wrong.
but i still feel guilty

and yes, of course i have a close friend
that can listen so this weight
can be lifted
but if i told them
i could hurt them,
and make them feel the same way.

I have been in this
Position one too many
Times, and this time
Hurts the worst.
But the reason I help,
The reason I care, is
Because I realize that
You have been there too
And I look up to you for
Getting through it.

so many People talk about me behind my back,
They are claiming to be my friend and
make fun of me.
have They ever thought "maybe she is tired of it
and thats why she doesn't laugh"?

i wish i was different too and
if only you knew what i do to make
others happy. but i will give you a hint
and it involves making myself miserable.

and all i need you to do is stop and think
for only one second before you speak of me.