little girl
why do you look so sad?
you have a home
a mom
a dad
little girl all by herself
curses the world
and everyone else
little girl
why do you cry?
did he tell you he loved you then say goodbye?
little girl
fell for his games.
pretty girl
what a shame
little girl
she no longer reads
because the endings always break her heart
little girl
caught up in another world
little girl
why do you scream in your head?
her nightmares terrorize her in bed.
little girl
has stopped sleeping
precious girl
has stopped eating
darling girl
please don't break completely
lovely girl
don't stop breathing
your life is more precious than you think
little girl
watches her blood flow down the sink
little girl
please hold on
little girl
please stay strong
little girl
with an ancient soul
little girl
please grow old
little girl
it will be alright
little girl
sleep well tonight
tomorrow is another day
she knows it will be filled with pain
for a new start
you cannot fix a broken heart
little girl
turns out the light
little girl
slept forever last night.

if you were to love me
i would love you more
because you are the only goodness in this ****** up world
your are the only light in this fog i struggle to see through everyday
you are the reason i wake up in the morning
and the reason i don't sleep at night
you are in my dreams
and nightmares
you are the air i breath
and i breath the best air
while everyone else breaths in disease and pollution
i breath life
you are apart of me
an *****
better yet, my brain
without you i can not function properly
no, my heart
because without you i can not function at all
if you were to love me
i would love you more

I mean, what do you want me to say? Do you want me to tell you that everything is ok now, that I am doing much better? Should I lie to spare your feelings? I feel the same way I have felt since the day you left, and I am starting to think that this feeling is never going to go away. This feeling of desertion and loneliness. I can crawl into the bed of a thousand men, and still feel as if I am caving in on myself because I’m so hollow on the inside. I don't want to feel this way. I mean nobody should want to feel this way, but I can't just scream at the top of my lungs for this intense aching to go away. Trust me, I have tried. I can't just lie in my room and cry away this wound that is in my heart, believe me when I tell you it doesn't work. I guess I could walk past you, and give you a smile, and I guess I could sit by you and laugh, just to make you feel ok. I am always trying to find a way to make you feel ok.

going a little to fast
him and I
side by side
blew down the road
on our way to an unwanted destination
where we would have to go our separate ways
I looked at him beside me
and almost started to cry
knowing that this could possibly be the last time in a long time
him and I will ride together in his most beloved car
I am so grateful for his car
because his car is the space that kept us safe and together on our short lived journey
I like how the world passes by when I look out his window
and **** I liked the way I caught him caught him looking at me
when I turned to sneak a glance at him
radio blaring
and hearts thumping almost louder
we screamed the words to a love song
you are my own love song
excitement filled my stomach when he drove into a puddle
that came from a beautiful rain
I hope someday I have a car as special as his
and I will take my friends
and we will go on crazy adventures
I HOPE SOMEONE FALLS IN LOVE THE WAY THAT I DID IN THAT CAR
I hope he falls in love with a girl who sits beside him in that car
and as we pulled into the end
as he walked me to my door
I let one tear slip
but the night covered it
he held me in his arms
and whispered in my ear
I realized how special this was
and I knew I would never let it go
**** if I would ever let it go

its not that i don't want to fall in love
because there are times when i do
i just do not like the idea of getting so attached to something
and then it actually hurt when they are taken away
i don't like the idea that my heart could be broken
by someone i trusted enough to let into it
i don't want to cry myself to sleep one night
because i go to close to someone
and in the end they not feel the same
i want to feel all the pleasures of love
all the feelings that come with that storm
but the aftermath is what scares me
and that is why i keep my distance
the ruins of what was one us
diminished by false hope
and i will run
and i will run
and i will run
until im far way from the love that is being given to me
i will blind myself so i can not see him standing in front of me
ready to love me
because what if it doesn't work
what if ii get hurt
or worse
what is he does
i am a guarded being
and it seems no matter how high you climb
and how hard you push
my walls are to hard to get around
and i don't want him to feel bad because i did not let him in
i will let no one in

We are the generation that loves the idea of love, but hates to be in the position where you have to care. In this generation we cause ourselves pain and then destroy our liver to get rid of it. A woman walking down the street at night alone is a rare sight because they are seen as objects to be fondled with instead of loved. Same *** marriage is legal yet people still get sick at the sight of a man kissing a man on the street; yet when a man kisses a girl in public people awe at them. We will watch the world pass us by , and say I will try to catch up to it tomorrow. In this generation we smoke too much, and drink until our insides burn. We don't like the world the way it is, but we will do nothing to change it because we feel as though we can't make a difference. We feel like we can talk, and scream, and plan, and try as much as we want, but who is going to listen to us? This generation has lost hope in itself. We have lost sight of what we can achieve because we have been blinded by being told for so long that we can't. We are the generation of lost souls.