each night i spread my fingers longingly across the sheets, waiting for you to reach them.
i sometimes think of them as vines searching for water across the river rocks, only to fall short of the stream by a few, heartbreaking inches.
i haven't stopped hoping that you will wrap your arms around my waist in the dead of night, or your lips softly kissing my neck or cheek while i am asleep.
even though you are a hundred miles away and the closest i can get to feeling you are near is when you appear in my dreams and in my thoughts, i know that our love is like a compass, and we're getting closer every day.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SU0AH4O1HhI i love you
it's past midnight, and you're asleep now. i'd do absolutely anything to be in your arms right now - being wrapped in you, so close to you. i long to feel your breath against my neck, and your smile against my back. i would give anything within the universe to wake up with you, and watch the sunlight drift through the cracks in the curtains in the early morning.
i have fallen in love with you so deeply, so infinitely. the earth seems boundless; our love can travel the world with us. i want to climb mountains with you, walk cobbled streets holding your hand, ride bikes through tuscan villages and swim in foreign seas with you. i want to eat crazy foods and drink fancy wine with you in cities we've never heard of, and then have a home to return to when we've come back from our adventures.
i want to come home at the end of a long day to a warm nook filled with love and music and you, to fall into your arms and be entangled with you all night long. i hope for a future filled with nothing but our love and all it can produce, for love is the meaning of life.
he asked me what he smelled like because i told him i missed it,
and i swear that might have been the most difficult question i've ever been asked because i know i could write books and books about it -
about how every time i press my lips against his back while he cooks, or when we're in bed together, or when i smell fresh air and see hammocks under the stars and hear soft guitar music that plays our favorite love songs, or how it feels to feel your hands everywhere, and how i can still feel the chills even now and how your smell makes me remember every time your hand felt for mine while we walked cobbled streets in the dark after listening to music for hours,
i want to experience mornings with you and give you kisses before you're awake - i want your heart to curl when you feel the steam of my shower float from the crack in the bathroom door, and i want to feel you long to join me.
i want to make breakfast with you.
i want to sneak up on you while you pour orange juice, and laugh as you spill a few drops onto the counter. i want to sit with you while we talk about our days, and i want to feel your hand graze my side as i walk to put the dishes away.
i am greedy and i want all of these little things, even though you're miles away and i'm stuck right here
i've been listening to our favorite song for hours now.
i keep looking at my phone and expecting it to light up with an i miss you, or an i wish you were here, but the screen doesn't blink.
i know it's late, but i've never missed you as much as i do in this moment.
maybe it's because i feel so close to losing you. or maybe it's because it's 4 am and my bed is empty.
your arms are miles away and not wrapped around me - i don't feel the warmth of your hands on my side, or your fingers lazily stroking circles onto my hip-bones the peak of your blond hair is sadly not peeping out from under my sheets, and i miss seeing the gold.
i pray for these things to happen every night, but i still wake up alone in the morning.
can't help falling in love // twenty-one pilots, cover