Un Bothered

How much it had took me just to convince my self, that it didn't matter.. With almost every strength on my body I had to hold it together so I couldn't break down and crumble. All those lies that were probably true. She didn't care for me as much as I did, as bitter and painful that truth was I had to swallow it, continue showing love with no return as I made excuses for her actions pacing inside my self just not to admit it she probably wasn't  meant for me. I did think about that quit often cincidering her actions... But then her actions where also confusing since she would be cold as a moon then one day hot as a summers day. So I couldn't really live because what if my perception of her was wrong since the views under love influence and conscious are never the same so I stayed with all the strength I had left trying not to doubt her or even judge as much as it did hurt I pretended that it didn't bother me Un bothered.


Swoo