He   r new   Anne   Fontaine puffy  pirate shirt,
       skinny jeans & Turquoise  
                stilettos
gets her in the back       alley
Jackson                   Street club
called [informally] the Hepkat          
where the      cats were                      Swinging
            n                       so hot hot hot;   they
reenact  (                       ) the zoot-suits riots
on Saturday Night & she gets
beaten up by the same ******             sailor
every Saturday; he said his name was Fred
& he      carried her   back to his place one night;
Fred had the biggest calico cat
                she had ever seen
& oddly, she ha seen  a few
& fell or flew into his arms
but poor Fred was gay & Asian Hipster  Barbie
as bad as she wanted to warn     him        didn't
           & as hot [she had a snooch - despite slumming
w/ around the Stonewall          franchise of the future:
drive-thru homosexuality - Barbie's mind
wanders when she thinks    what two hard
***** could do to each other -
w/ no clue but the gay **** she's been reading
since second grade [since she found
an old scummy underground glossy    floating
in the gutter & sneaking it home
in her book bag & set it out to let it dry out
                                         like a sacred relic
of some mysterious  culture or civilization:
& there it was, straight up     [it was surprisingly easy
        to get her hands on more - the same way - ]
someone must have been spooging       on them & chucking them
in the trash & somehow
    they inevitably wound up n the gutter -    
                         & out of Tom of Finland:   [like the garbage
man refused to take it w/ the garbage
so he tossed it in the gutter    when he threw
                       the contents of       smelly,    
                   trash basket into the chopper |      
as she was        [she found she could shove
                         her own fist up her *** || not that
                         she bragged about it | her friends
at boarding school          were all closet-lesbians 
[Barbie wanted to be the bottom
   in a Tom of Finland cartoon -]
  [she wondered                  if she'd ever get laid
     or treated like the woman she [her own kind
     of secret - [                      ], (                 )
      so she could fist herself; it never became
                  necessary to *** that hard again      - ever]
imagined                   herself to be - or man]                    looking;                    
his      
                         eyes melted in his head
& she froze hard -