one minute I'm hot
the next I'm cold
what do I do
with my indecisiveness?
one minute I'm starving
the next I wanna throw up
what shall I do
with my indecisiveness?
one minute I'm okay
the next I'm not
how do I
**** my indecisiveness?

the pain that I feel
is unbearable
not the sickness pain
but the pain within
not one thing
but all things together
my heart hurts
my head hurts
everything hurts
all the time
it truly never stops
sometimes I forget it's there
but other times
it's the only thing I feel
and when it's
the only thing I feel
it makes me
not want to
exist anymore