You left a place open in my life. You were the most important person to me, and I would have done everything to keep things the way they were, even though it was draining. You told me you still wanted to be friends, but I can't see you as anything else. I never have, and now Ι miss someone to just hold me. Νot hug me but hold me. Ι don't know if it was healthy, but Ι tried to make sure it was. Ι would have given you all the space you wanted/needed. I would have given you my body and my sould and it hurts to know I thought you wanted it for so long. You never did. I can't blame you for it, but it hurts. I love you. more than I've ever loved anyone in my life, and I'm not sure if I'll ever meet someone I'll love the same. You were my ******* everything, and even if it wasn't healthy I would have stayed because I still love you.