but if i don't love you
then who will?

your lips made love to mine
every dawn and eve with passion
as your hands and eyes secured my body
to make sure i knew where home was

you gave water to my roses
when the world convinced me
that there was a drought

i was so terrified of losing you for the longest time
that i became angry with myself
for not finding the perfect solution
to reinvent myself
to make you stay in my garden

i wondered what i could do to make things better
for you to only praise the ground i walked on

day and night i fought battles alone
to become your dream

but then i realized you were sleeping
and never wished to wander
among the roses in my garden

and that made me realize
that you were never the gardener
that i deserved nor should have ever wished to have

for i am the owner of my garden
and i have the power to decide
who should smell the petals on my roses

for the longest time i was comparing myself
to anything imaginable in life
i was convinced that everything in this world
was better than me

i would chase shadows down the grocery aisles
thinking that you would be in the floral section
picking out the bouquet you promised to deliver
to my house's porch steps in the pouring rain

i was convinced that if i was a perfect ten
we would be a match made in heaven
and no one else would be worthy of your love

then it took time to realize
that mindset would get me nowhere

you are not obligated
to be attached
to the root
of any flower
in your garden

i cannot keep bargaining with time
if it was meant to be
it would have been