what disappoints me the most

is that i was really wishing

you were rooting for me

in the end of all of this

my heart breaks in shatters

as you knew it was
always me
but you
always been
for her

what if you were the one

for me

and i let you go
but then again
if you were the one
this situation
wouldn’t be
the one

to think if you were the one

for me

i think i am falling in love
with someone who has forgotten my soul

because i have neglected their existence
as i praised another

and my words of lipgloss stained lies
will not bring them back this time

what hurts the most

is that

i always knew

you’d be the one to hurt me

first

i wish i knew that
the day we met
we would not last a lifetime
so i could cherish the present
instead of reminiscing now
everything that could have been
through the ghost of you

caught in the middle of deciding

to wait for you
or
to wait for me

the old me before you