my heart is giving up
and my body is tired
for giving the world
to those who
do not view me
as their world

you are showing me
every possible reason
not to love you
yet i still ignore the warning signs

i am starting to get disappointed in myself
for allowing acceptance of the ****
that i should not be putting up with in my life

forgive me but i am hopeful

i am falling in love
with just the idea of you
living inside of my mind
beautifully as imagery

having so much on my mind
dying to tell you my secrets
but
it would be the death of us
forgive me for i cannot say

it is funny how
i see myself inside of you

it is funny
because i am saddened with the girl i have become

i think it hurts to be me
searching for the girl
who used to be
before used was she

teenage years haunt a falsehood of reality
but i think it hurts me most
becoming someone i shall disappoint