i always disliked
how you knew when to come back around
when my life was finally back in place
after each time you broke my heart

it’s not a *******. & her. & her. & all the other girls you decided to spend the night with instead of a sober one with me. it’s just simply a *******. because when i was the one to hold it down for you it couldn’t be reciprocated with your nonreligious morals that call you to be an average teenage boy portrayed in society.

you will never see the worth of a female. until one treats you the same way you did to me.

the lust inside of your body rages of addiction. forcing the potential love your mother raised you to show to the world to be rotten deep inside of your wasted body.

so this is my finger & i point it out to you.

how do i show you my favorite view
when it is standing right in front of me

perfect height
big brown eyes
unforgettable smile
gorgeous laugh

stand right here & wait for me
i will be coming back with a mirror

the dusty blush roses
that grew in my garden
were always seeds of love
for your beating heart

and the petals that fell off
slowly crying weak stems
ate the pain of your absence
with forgiveness of myself

i am starting to realize
that i have the power
to shut & lock the door
before they even leave

i am dying to feel those butterflies inside of me
that explode wings of romance all because of you

& suddenly everything became about you.