how do i show you my favorite view
when it is standing right in front of me

perfect height
big brown eyes
unforgettable smile
gorgeous laugh

stand right here & wait for me
i will be coming back with a mirror

the dusty blush roses
that grew in my garden
were always seeds of love
for your beating heart

and the petals that fell off
slowly crying weak stems
ate the pain of your absence
with forgiveness of myself

i am starting to realize
that i have the power
to shut & lock the door
before they even leave

i am dying to feel those butterflies inside of me
that explode wings of romance all because of you

& suddenly everything became about you.

i feel as if i can never win
even if i am in first place

i feel as if my life is falling apart
& i am doing nothing to stop it
watching each piece of me
slowly tear away for rotting