It Was A Warm Spring Day,
In Our Downtown Home,
White Paint Was Lethargically Pealing,
Off The Siding Which Lay Beneath Curling Vines,
I Still Remember Your Smile Daddy,
Your Coal Colored Hair Lingering In The Breeze,
As You Asked Me, "Do You Wanna See?"
I Nodded Not Quite Sure What I Was Going To See,
You Gently Lifted Me Up,
Put Me On Your Shoulders Like You Always Did,
And Let Me Peer Inside A Forest Of Vines,
And What I Saw Both Frighted And Enchanted Me,
Something Completely New,
A Little House Wren Who Cradled Her Eggs,
And Looked At Me,
Her Heart Beating Quickly,
"She's Protecting Her Babies," You Whispered,
"Just Like I'll Always Protect You"
"Hi," I Said And Held Out My Hand,
The Little Wren Flew Away And I Sobbed,
"Why Was It Scared Of Me Daddy?"
"It Was Only Letting You See It's Eggs"

I Was Hoping Today It Would Be Fine,
That The Mayan Prophesy Was Divine,
That We Would Be Saved By A Glowing Light,
I Was Stirring  In My Blankets All Night,
For Curiosity Bubbled Inside,
To Bathe The Spirit In Which I Confide,
Yet The Road To Redemption Is Still Coarse,
Screaming For Wanted Change; My Voice Is Hoarse,
We Still Hold The Bottle To Our Stained Lips,
Holding On To Hope But Losing My Grip,
Today I Wish Humanity Is Healed,
But The Atmosphere Is Starting To Peal,
Why Should I Hate When All I Feel Is Love,
Yet All The Owls Are Killing My Doves

The Base Vibrates All Throughout My Body,
The Melody Expanding In My Tired Chest,
My Mind Drawing A Blank--Just How I Like It,
My Lips Forming Every Vowel With Care,
Oh Music Take Me Away,
Let Your Notes Heal The Wounds On My Soul,
Let Your Lyrics Fill My Empty Lips,
I Want To Be The Rhythm That Touches My Ear,
I Want To Be The Tune Which Soothes My Hurt,
Oh Music Let Me Be You,
My Fists Finally Have Something To Hold Onto,
My Heart Finally Has A Purpose To Keep The Beat,
There Is A Reason Inside My Mind,
There Is A Memory In Which I Confide,
Oh Music Thank You For Saving Me,
My Passion Breathes For The Beat,
My Soul Swims For The Story,
I Finally Found The Key,
In The Form Of A Line,
Oh Music *You Set Me Free

The Dull Dawning Sky Woke The Birds,
As It Metamorphosed In Grace,
The New Day Deserved No New Words,
For She Would've Taken Them With Her,
As Well As Every Waining Breath,
She Brought With Her Spirits For Life,
She **** With Her Spirits Of Death,
To Bring Them Back To The Heavens

My Body Is A Cage, A Portal,
And A Stone.
My Pain Is A Friend, A Shadow
And A Foe.
My Body Is A Host, A Mortal,
And A Home.
My Pain Is A Monster, A Hunger
In My Bones.

Deep Inside I Can Feel It Rumbling,
The Wall I've Built Slowly Crumbling,
My Heart Free Falling,
Through The Air In My Chest--Tumbling,
My Brain Drunk With Thirst, It's Thoughts Are Stumbling,
The Woods From Outside, Pulling--Calling,
I Can Feel The Dornmant Plague Inside Me,
Angrily Awakening,
Eager To Feed On The Outside World,
And I'm Sad To Say,
It's Contagious

A Thick Chord Echoed,
Weaving With Sly Precision,
Through The Sleeping Trees,
At The Sound Of Such Beauty,
I Decided I Must Sing

"Sydney?"

The Young Lady's Green Eyes Looked Up From A Heap Of Homework.

"Yes?"

Her Eyes Examined The Man Which Stood In Front Of Her. His Jet Black Hair Was Now Streaked With Small Strands Of Silver. His Gray Eyes Seemed Tired, But They Were The Same As They've Always Been.

The Man Looked At The Young Women Who Sat Before Him. Her Body Which Was Now Lean And Toned Was Supported By Long Legs. She Was Older Now: Her Heart Shaped Face Was Slightly Worn, But Her Eyes Were As Deep And Green As They'd Always Been.

"Promise Me Something."

The Man Watched The Young Lady As She Examined The Room Around Her; Just As She Had Since She Was A Child. Sometimes He Caught Her Watching A Bird Hopping In The Greenest Of Grasses On A Summer Afternoon, Or Intently Examining The Veins In A Leaf During The Fall Months.

The Young Lady Watched The Man's Thin Lips Set Back Into A Straight Line.

"Promise Me, You'll Always Stay The Same."

The Young Women Smiled As The Man Placed His Hand Upon Her Head; Gently Ruffling Her Soft Brown Hair.

"Daddy, The Only Way I'd Change Is If It Was For The Better."

The Eerie Dance Upon The Moon,
The Boy Who Held The Silver Spoon,
Inside His Mouth When He Was Born,
His Eyes Were Round And Full Of Scorn,
He Only Grined To Cover A Scowl,
I Was Prey, A Mouse To An Owl,
I Looked At Him And Had No Desire,
His Soul Is Cold, And Mine Is Fire,
That Spoon Was Not Silver, It Was Just Tin,
That's What I've Learned Throughout Our Sins,
They're Rotten Fruit Which Hangs From Trees,
I Took A Bite And Through Them To The Bees,
His Eyes Were Burning Through My Skin,
His Pupils Were Needles Burrowing In,
Innocent But Wanted For Someone's Crime,
I'm Still In My Sentence Doing My Time,
I Am Smothered By His Permanent Scent,
Because Of All The Time We've Ever Spent,
The Boy Who Held The Silver Spoon,
Shall Receive His Karma Very Soon,
Making People Think It Was Silver And Then
They Realized It Was Just Tin

The Sky Has Seen Horrid Sights
And Cried Many Tears
It Has Housed Angels And Demons
And Every Single One Of My Fears
Wolves Run Freely Throughout My Dreams
And Though My Heart Is Breaking At The Seams
I've Learned To Love Them

Waves Crashing On A Ruthless Shore
All I Hear Is The Slamming Of Doors
All The Banging Shakes Me To The Core
A Shattered Soul Lays Broken On The Floor

My Stature Lean And Gradually Stiffening
My Green Eyes Miraculously Glistening
As Demons In The Dark Are Grimacing
And I Can Feel My Blood Thickening

My Hair As Black As The Wolf In My Dreams
Which Comes Running Everytime I Scream
It Heals The Heart I Wear--Broken At The Seams
It's Eyes Yellow With A Beautiful Gleam

The Sky Has Seen Horrid Sights
And Cried Many Tears
It Has Housed Angels And Demons
And Every Single One Of My Fears
Wolves Run Freely Throughout My Dreams
And Though My Heart Is Breaking At The Seams
I've Learned To Love Them

I Am A Flower--Summer Serves Me Well,
Though I Love Winter It Holds Like A Spell,
The Snow Is A Place I Am Forbidden,
Though I Can't Resist Being Frostbitten,
The Frost Withers My Petals--Soft As Silk,
But It Is Okay, It Is Just The Bilk,
The Cold Chills My Stem And Gets To My Brain,
My Skin Turns Brittle And Old--It's Death's Stain,
The Other Plants Have Had Their Kiss From Death,
Though I Know I Am Close To My Last Breath,
I Try To Stand Tall And Reach The Pale Sun,
I Tried To Win A Battle Which Can't Be Won,
I Have Stood Winter's Blizzard--Ice And Snow,
Though I Get Buried The Longer I Go,
Hanging Onto The World I Do Not Need,
The Reason I Love It--There Are No Weeds,
I Know If I Let Go There Will Be Spring,
An Eternity From What Frost Brings

Trees Sway In Chilled Winds,
Sights Of You Make Me Weary,
My Mind Dangerous,
Dangerously Close To You,
And Thinking Of You Again

It Was The Beginning Of A New World,
The Warm Belated Scent Of Spring Grew Strong,
Butterflies Returned With A Gentle Hum,
Birds Awoke With The Element Of Song,
The Bitter Snow Has Fallen In Lush Grass,
As Stems Of Flowers Grew Mighty And Long,
She Stood Elegant--Her Dress Eggshell White,
Yet She Looked Like She Perfectly Belonged,
Her Soot Black Hair Was As Dark As The Raven's,
The Tune Which She Hummed Was Rich As A Gong's,
Her Feet Were Bare And Smooth As Spider's Silk,
She Held The Sun And Guided It Along,
Along Rivers, Ravines, And Human Roads,
She Returned The Warmth Which The Creatures Longed,
She Healed Winter's Wounds And Gathered Those Past,
Nurtured Them And Took Them Where They Belonged,
Her Eyes Were Green As The New Foliage,
Her Soul Was Sweet And Gentle As A Song,
But Her Only Job Was To Bring Back Spring,
*Then She Was Just A Whisper On The Wind

Fear Is Entering,
Through Every Pore Of My Skin,
Every Breath I Take,
Escapes Black And Trembling,
The Tips Of My Fingers..Cold

Fear Is Wriggling,
Down From My Brain To My Heart,
It Hurts While Beating,
Pushing Worry Through My Veins,
Pumping This Terror To My Soul

This Fear Is Laughing,
Chuckling At My Wide Eyes,
This Fear Is Thirsty,
Lapping At My Sweaty Hands,
As It Cuffs Me To The Wall

Fear Is Taking Hold,
On The Tears That Leave My Eyes,
The Fear Is Piercing,
The Tissues Of My Belly,
It's Here Because.. You're Back

*Sydney

The Dawning Sky Awaits For Me,**
It's Time For Me To *Soar

She Calls Me Cinderella,
But She Is Fairest Of The Land,
For She Is Sweet And Kind,
Always Ready To Lend A Hand,
She Is Also Beautiful And Lovely,
So Lively And Pure,
So Right And Just, So I Must,
Thank Her For Being So Sweet

Tonight The Thickets Are Completely Still,
The Cold Is Cutting Through My Damp Jacket,
The Pale And Far Away Sun Almost Gone,
The Only Sound Is A Lone Raven's Call,
It Is Hoarse Yet Quiet, Miles Away,
Evergreen Boughs Lie Limp Heavy With Snow,
Picture Perfect--A Postcard From God's Land,
Winter Is An Odd Time In The Forest,
Rarely Do I See A Bird Flutter Or,
Hear Any Creature Stir In This White Wood,
Frozen In The Snow Lie Sleeping Flowers,
Yet I Have Never Heard Those Flowers Snore,
Tonight The Thickets Are Eerily Still,
Yet This Quiet Is What I've Searched For,
The Silence Whispers A Song Few Can Hear,
I Am Fine With This Being The Last Song,
Which Ever Slithers In My Frosted Ear

Let The World Envelop Me,
And Abondon My Hollowed Body,
Let The Stars Free Me From Anguish,
And The Error Of Hesitation

Let The Sea Consume Me,
And Let My Weary Eyelids Close,
Let The Current Cast Away My Doubt,
And The Insecurities I Hold Tightly To

Let The Flowers Tickle My Skin,
And Let Them Take Away The Envy,
Tell The Sun To Nurture What Is Good,
And Let The Rest Fade Into The Breeze

Let The Soil Embrace Me,
And Extract All Which Gives Me Pain,
Let The Earth Feed Upon My Hatred,
And Convert My Remorse To Nourishment

Never Give Up On Your Dreams
Unless They're Truly Stupid

Am I Defined By A Grade Circled In Red,
Or Am I Defined By The Teacher Which Gave It?

Am I Defined By The Rumors Which Cling To My Name,
Or Am I Defined By My Peers Who Spread Them?

Am I Defined By The Words Of Corrupted Beings,
Or The Feelings In Which They Half-Heartedly Dwell?

I Want To Define Myself--Someday Soon,
I Don't Want To Be The Girl Who,

Said This,
Wore This,
Did This

I Don't Want To Be The Girl Who,

Liked Him,
Then Loved  Him,
Then She Was The One Who Lost

I Don't Want To Be The Girl,

So Many People Say I Am,

I Want To Be

*Sydney

I Want To Scream,
Break A Vase,
See The Tears, On My Face?
I Don't Want To Dream,
I Don't Want To Sleep,
Though I'm Tired, So Tired I Weep.
Yesterday Was Horrible,
Yet Today Was Worse,
I Feel The Wicked--Dreaded Curse.
The Star Necklace Falling,
From My Neck,
But With All The Pain What Do You Expect?
You Can Turn Against Me,
Rip Through My Spline,
Though You'll Never Destroy This Durable Machine.
Let's Take A Bow,
And Raise A Hand,
Though The Encore Is For Another Band.

The Flowers Completely Withered,
A Shadow Sneakily Slithered,
Through The Eerie Night

A Heart Tattered,
And Pages Of A Memoir Brutally Battered,
What A Mysterious Sight

Black Shadows Masqurade,
A Girl Young--So Brave,
Killing Demons With A Soul So Bright

Needle In Her Brain,
The Skin On Her Arm Stained,
Yet She Still Fights

The Clouds Aloft,
Warm Breath Covered In Frost,
Falling Stars Ignite

Eyelids Heavy And Drooping,
Thoughts Entangled--Endlessly Looping,
Ones That Are Neither Wrong Nor Right

Consciousness Forced,
A Body Exhausted As If She Just Climbed A Horst,
Darkness Enclosing The Light

A Glassy Stare Holding Greenish Eyes,
Metal Teeth Tearing Helping To Disguise,
The Disease Which Was Given Out Of Spite

Walls White And Square,
Sometimes Life Is Just Not Fair,
Dream Of A Better Tomorrow As You Sleep Tight

Andromeda Pulses Eager To Shine,
Black Sky Outlines Swirled Lemon Lime,
Comets Race With Tails Ablaze,
Dazzling Dancers Which Capture Our Gaze,
Earthenware Births From A Cosmic Soil,
Fiery It Thrives--To Our World It Is Loyal,
Ganymede Dances With Calypso In Flight,
Heavenly They Dance Through Days And Nights,
Illusions Reality In Wind They Sway,
Jasmine Fills The Breeze Of April And May,
Knapsacks Of Gold Lay In Coarse Sands,
Lavish T'were The Warm And Loving Lands,
Mercury Peers Around The Light In The Sky,
Never Will It Dare To Speak A Lie,
Orion Plays Among The Other Stars,
Prancing He Hunts In A Prairie Afar,
Quiet, Spirits Drift Along The Currents Of Time,
Radiant They Skip Gleaming Like A Dime,
Shrill Heartbeats Throttle The Ear,
Together Moons Lurk--Ever So Near,
United Blue Nebulas Sing In Pride,
Water Crystallied Trying To Hide,
Xenophobes Hide Underneath Worn Roads,
Yonder Throats Sing Untill Their Melodies Erode,
Zipped Were The Lips Of Change

The Nets Hold Our Dreams Like Tangled Bugs,
And The Courts Gleam With Our Ambition,
Beads Of Sweat Form Perfectly On Our Raised Brows,
As We Play With The Attitude A Champion Needs,
We Are Dressed In Black And Blue,
Floor Burn Covering Our No Longer Smooth Skin,
Our Lips Bleeding From The Battle For The Ball,
The Sound Of Screaming Becomes White Noise,
As We Burrow Into The Gym Floor,
Just For One More Medal,
And As We Walk Away From The Courts,
With Our Arms Bruised And Torn,
Red And Raw,
We Smile At Our Dreams Still Lying,
In The Twisted Nets