I saw you sitting across my seat on the train and felt your hand at the beach brushing against mine as I walk along the shore. I felt you everywhere like you promised. With every decision that I make, with every step I take, I hear you.

But like a fleeting cloud it’s there but I just watch it pass through my day. This is not me waiting rather I’m acknowledging that you are here and will always be.

I saw you sitting
In front of me
Across my seat
Like a reflection
As you are

It’s funny how I like the way I feel after losing you. It’s not morbid nor greedy.

I miss you differently
I miss you but I’m not sad
I miss the whole you but I’m not feeling selfish.

I find myself waiting..
Maybe just longing..
It is all in the past,
But I wanted that hug to last.

You did not ever say
that you love her more
just how long has it been
If that equates to more
you wouldn’t have loved another soul
I wasn’t and am still not in the right place
But I should tell you,
Free yourself,
Until you can tell me,
You love her more.

Time passes
I stayed stationary
But it won't stop for me