so it happened
once again
makes my heart sore
the more i think about doing more
the more i am doing less
so it creeps  in, sadness

everyone answered almost immediately
"the guy should love you more"
yet, I found myself loving you more
silly question, why would it be
wrong or that way
I didn't want to know

I couldn’t figure out.
How am I your security,
When I don’t feel secure?

i was never meant to be surrounded with many people all the time
i was doing my best, made it easier for them, harder for me
and so im seeing its worth but i can live without it
and so i rot inside hoping still hoping i wont affect them

It's too **** hard just to show up
and feeling worse about the idea
just celebrating that

That if I stop,
my progress will be pulled back
hitting me to my farthest setback

As if I never tried,
Given up