Love strikes at the heart
It sometimes tears it apart
For that is what is living
Even when it is unforgiving

Anguish sometimes will call
Naked in your time to fall
Deeper where love left you

Dropping to where nothing is true
Every emotion you every felt
All now causing you to melt
Telling you it is all over now
Hoping love will return somehow

How I would love to crack open your skull,
to pull back the layers of impenetrable stone.
To strip and peel away each level of calcium,
until I reach that intoxicating, tangled mass.
To trace along every crevice and every groove
and memorize the landscape that devises you.
Once you are sewn up and put back together,
I would rest my weary head against your chest,
and be reaffirmed by the resonating silence.

Does it hurt? Yes it does
But space is not a bad thing
It was going to happen eventually, so better now than later

Was I hurt by some of the things you said? 
Yes I was
Being told once again that I care too much
That I have made my significant other "uncomfortable" because I care
Yeah, that hurts
But you're right, I was giving you a lot of my time
I got a little derailed and forgot what I was doing

So space right now is not a bad thing
I feel I am doing right by letting you breathe on your own for a while
Giving you a chance to figure things out
Cause God knows I want that too
And all I can pray for is that you find what you're looking for in these next few days
And that you don't stop adoring me
That having this alone time
This time to meditate and regenerate
Will only make us stronger

I'm sorry your bewildered and confused
Everything happened so fast!
It's all apart of growing up and growing in a relationship
Discovering the lines that shouldn't be crossed
Finding the words to say when you're upset
And realizing that there is no waiting for a good time to have a serious talk
It's now or never

It's not over yet, we're ok
Just overwhelmed and tangled

I sit I wait... but for how long?
It just seems like you won’t be there.
A flash of light,
that glimmer of hope.
I look down to see it isn’t you
but someone else.
My smile slowly dies from that brief rush.

The waiting continues but still nothing.
I know you’re busy
It’s perfectly fine.
So suddenly my smile returns
when I almost gave up hope.
We talk for hours but so short it seems
when I sadly have to end it.

I can’t believe my heart skipped a few beats when all we did was
Talk.

I kind of want to delete everything
Because maybe then I could forget who I am
But with my luck it'd make me forget who you are too.

I need to believe that I'm good enough
But rereads make me think the opposite
And words in bed are too dangerous to believe.

You see something in me
And apparently I'm blind to it.
I've been trying-your words don't scare me as much these days
But I think I might be showing it more.
I guess I trust you, is all.

You scared me, bad.
Or I scared myself.
All I know is I had to retreat.
It wasn't intentional
Without defense mechanisms, war would be much faster.

Maybe it's a cycle.
I'm not sure which is the starter, my writing or my self esteem
But they both seem to fall terribly every few weeks.

The limelight is unflattering to everyone
Because lime green is such a horrible color.
I think it's the worst on me.

I don't think you can realize how big of a deal it is for me.
I don't know what I'm so afraid of
But nothing you say seems to help.
I still freeze
I still petrify.
It still makes me want to run away.