so many missed opportunities
so many wasted smile
can we please escape this harsh reality
and just get away for a while?
I miss you
but
I hate you
you've changed so much that
I hardly know you
you were my best friend
and my worst nightmare
I was sinking in your sand
but you've finally became the
one person
that
I can't stand

I've developed a bad habit
Of biting my lips until the skin won't tear
Which I never did when you were around
Because you always liked them perfectly glossed
I don't fall asleep with my phone near my ear now
But apparently that gives you cancer anyway
(I hope you don't get cancer
While you're talking to your new lover)
And I have quite a few more glasses of ***** now than I ever did
And my laugh just isn't as loud and vibrant
And my daily make-up routine is much more complex
And I can't listen to certain songs anymore
And I sometimes wonder if I'll ever feel loved again
If anyone could pretend to care as much as you did
But I haven't given up hope quite yet