The days are longer with out
you, even when the sky is
blue, I only see grey.

I walk in your footsteps,
I remember every step you
took, and I walk them every day.

I never open the bedroom
window, as your scent still
floats around in the air, when
I sleep its like your next to
me even though you are not there.

I look after you, make sure its
tidy where you rest. I miss you
my love but i know your not
gone in some way you'll always
be here with me even though
your not there..

I'm going to continue smiling,
opening the door for others,
laughing at my mistakes and flaws,
enjoying what I find interesting,
and being polite even to those who probably don't deserve it.
But I am not a judge
nor do I have the power to dictate what anyone should receive.
So,
I will try not let anyone's
bitterness or intolerance
prevent me from being the good person I know I should be.

I feel a pressure on my chest,
Feel myself rise like a waves white crest
I feel it leaving, my last breath
I never thought I'd come face to face,
with death

I thought if drugs would **** me,
They'd have done it by now
I didn't think they'd **** me,
Sweat drips from my brow

I wake up in a cold shower
My friend smacking my face
The pressure is gone now,
I couldn't let that breath escape

Now when I see *******, I feel strange
I feel wisdom that comes with pain or age
Stay away from that ****, and keep your nose clean
Trust me, please,
Sometimes, my nostrils still bleed
And I can hear my mothers screams
in the back of my head
When I was thought to be dead,
And that cold water hit me,
And I saved that breath

thoughts can cut sharp as knives
deep into the inner flesh of minds mind
be careful what you think
what others may be thinking
pay no mind

bouncing along on a breeze
in love with the scent of flowers
enjoying colour:
Busy Bee life
manifestations

It begins as a warm fire
a tingling glow deep inside
attempting to ignore it
pushing it to the back of my mind

The warmth transforms to a burning
filling every ****** thought in my head
my body yearning and craving
the hot spot deep within my bed

I sadly wait frustrated
as at this moment I am all alone
and long for my man to return
when I know he'll make me his own