I have a feeling
deep inside me
that keeps growing
every time I see you.

It starts in my stomach
now it's in my heart
the feeling changed
and it's ripping me apart
slowly
you broke my heart
but I should've known
I saw it coming
the day I met you.

You led me on
just to leave me hanging
trying to get by
day by day
I can't go much longer
If  I have to see you with her
it tears me apart
that you don't care anymore
I thought you were the one
that we'd be happy
but I was wrong
I was never an option.

You do things with her
that I wish you did with me
but I guess I wasn't special enough,
I have to earn love.

That's not normal.
Im done with this.
I don't need you,
I need a real man.
Who shows me off to his friends,
who will hold man hand even if it's just for a few minutes,
who will hug me for hours,
who will kiss me in the rain,
who will comfort me when I'm down,
but most importantly,
who will love me when there is nothing left to love.

I need a Romeo
to die for this Juliet,
I need someone willing
to catch me if I fall for him.
Someone sweet
Someone kind
Someone who won't lie to me.
All I ever wanted was a guy
to make me happy.
So many impostures,
break, break, breaking my heart.
I think I've cried so much
that I could cry you a river.

Even though you broke my heart
I still want to hold you
wishing every day that you would realize
that she's wrong for you.
please come back to  me
I wonder what we could be

I miss you and I know you miss me too
baby please come back to me
she is getting in our way.

When we met I knew
You're so much more than a one night stand
I knew I'd want to hold your hand

I wish I had the guts to say something
Cause I know you don't see
How perfect you are to me.  

With you, I want to lie under the sky
Wrapped in your arms
I want to make wishes on shooting stars.

But I'm scared I don't know the real you.
And I'm scared you'd run from the real me.
What happens when you realize I'm crazy.

What happens if you find out
I think about you every day?
What happens if you walk away?

I want to say all this to you...
But I know I'm going to erase this
And pretend I never wrote it.

I'll tell myself to keep it in,
To guard my heart
Because it will never start.

But what would happen if
I sent this to you now?...

I wish I had the guts to find out.

When you love someone who is not there
Your mind will learn to create
Draw images of how everything should be
Erase ones that depict how it actually is
Eventually you will forget what is real
And what is make believe
You will convince yourself
That you are not forgotten
And that even though you haven't heard from him in days
He still thinks of you
You will tell yourself
That you are still wanted
Regardless of the fact that you barely want anything to do with yourself
You will somehow believe that someone else does
He will not tell you though
You have to remind yourself that he is too busy
Too involved even for a hello
You will have to remember
That his life never intended on having you be part of it
And that you
Will probably never be a part of it
You will constantly be reminded of every time you were promised future
And your wanting for it will become unbearable
You will lay awake at night like you always do
This time tasting of more than just alcohol and regret
You will swallow your own tongue wondering why fate never seems to be on your side
Thinking maybe you were never meant to love in the first place
That meeting him was a mistake
You should have known better anyway
To fall for a guy
With a heart already occupied
You know all too well
That there is not enough room in one for two
And you are the tenant with the most vacant body
Stop trying to fill yourself with things that don't exist
You will need to recall
Every single time you have built yourself up
Your expectations piling above you
Never anticipating the crash
You always seem to be staring blank eyed
When everything around you crumbles into disaster
You learn to pick up the pieces
And glue them into something decent enough to look at
Your mind is still painting pictures
On a canvas that will most likely never be tangible
And you will be reminded of it when you're laying in bed
And your hands grab for someone who is not there
When you love someone who is not there
You will spend every second of the day
Searching for them in crowded rooms
When in reality
You know
They weren't there to begin with
And they probably
Never will be.

you walked into my life
as just another guy
made an effort, hoping
I would notice, guess what,
I did, it worked, you're in.

we talked for a while
hit it off, now we're
working on us.

these days are the good ones,
when a simple wave can make our days.
no fights, its like we're high,
not feeling pain, can't stop smiling.

now everything is tumbling down,
don't know what's going on.
wondering where we went wrong.
is it because I didn't want to "hang"?
well I had a reason for that,
news gets around quick, especially
when you tell your cousin, my best friend,
you weren't gonna talk to me this summer,
what's that about?!

I got furious you see,
you talk to me like everything is like normal,
I tried but it wasn't the same.

we fell out of love,
or whatever we had.
then we meet again,
go swimming,
have fun,
you took my heart prisoner,
and I fell in love all over again,
but it's different this time,
*I can't love you , you love another.