E v e r y,
                place you touch
                                             leaves
                                                        a
                                                          lavish
                                                                   t r a i l
                                                                    of  goosebumps.
                                                                                                     ..
                                                                                                       ...

i held it  delicately in my naive unworn hands, why did you rip it from me? why did you insist on making my gift, yours? it wasn't supposed to be under you're belt it was never meant to be one of your badges. from the day you said i had nice eyes, i knew i didn't want to give it to you. but i was naive, i wanted fun. i should have asked you what colour they were before i got into your car- my eyes i mean. i bet you would have said brown, well they're hazel thats what everybody whose ever like me has said, and if i had asked that very moment i wouldn't have gotten into your car, i wouldn't  have cried myself to sleep that night, or the 100 that followed. i should have known i was worth more than you ever gave me credit for.
2 years later your name still makes me want to *****. i don't hate you, i would have had to love you first and i never did.

I've been up for days...how young can  you die from old age?

and did you hear me?
i called your name in my sleep
i tasted you on the tip of  my tongue when i woke

my heart is broken!
i wish i could scream this for everyone to hear at the top of my lungs
all that comes out is a breath of a whisper as i lay here curled up like an unborn child
but you have broken me, it is difficult for one to scream after being broken.

thunder echoes in  concrete coloured clouds as  flumes of steam  leave my lips
the earths new position has brought autumn light that leaves trees glowing
sound is more muted as it is dampened by layers of leaves on the ground
the nature things are sleepy

do you feel me at all
do you feel my hands around your throat
tightening slowly
do you feel my nails on your leg
cutting you slowly
do you feel my heart beating in your hand
dying slowly

my legs stir and my arms are more chilled as they grow accustomed to the absence of you

When did you stop loving me?
She whispered into the wind that ran through the trees
When did you stop loving me?
She wept into the deepest sea that swallowed everything whole
When did you stop loving me?
She sadly mumbled into the darkest of nights that absorbed every glimmer of light

sometimes,
           i wish i'd die
just to prove myself right

still the many cuts  on fingers are fresh
from the memory of your skin
those painful imprints of your caress

you wait
to message me

right when i get
                           happy

one misconstrued word  slips,

from his naive yet wise lips

she can feel  hell's heat upon her face

 her  blood pressure rises at a horrible pace,

boiling now;

she wants to be loved but has never known how

heart beats wildly

unsteadily;

she  trembles in a kind of pain

that cannot be pitied or explained

she opens her mouth to scream

but her raw lips can hardly breathe

too consumed in this fury to move

has lost all things to prove

she just sits there,

hunched into an emotionless ball

jaw and fists clenched

knuckles white

her tired neck tight

who ever takes the useless victory

will come home to an empty bed

both will loose it in the end

both will lose a lover,

and a friend

"can we be friends again?" she sheepishly whispers
he looks up tired and sick of her ways.
"we will always be friends, i will always love you", he smiles sadly because he knows its the truth. she was jealous and unhealthy, he honest and not ready.

Your lips are the ripest plum;
that I cant keep myself from bitting

The ridge of your nose is the loveliest curve;
that I cant keep from tracing

Your eyes are a deep arctic ocean;
I can't keep myself from falling  into

oh how hard it is;
to resist
the delectable sweetness
of your tender kiss

Your body's the Earth,
mine's the Moon,
I can't help making love to you

Everyday I take the metro to college
Everyday I pass your stop
Everyday I expect to see your car picking me up,
Every day you still don't love me again,
and I don't get off at your stop.

I miss
being one with you
I miss
intimacy,
and
being held
I miss
making love,
I miss
your smell

In the end all  have are your own two feet grounded in the earth guiding you to where only you can be

All you have are your own two arms to pick you up again when you fall and carry you through the dark

All you have is the company of your own vibrant and beautiful soul, that's where you will learn to  find a home.

You won't find me where you left me,
Huddled in the cold. No when you return you won't find me at all. I have shed the skin you once knew, like a snake I left old memories and layers where you last loved me. Where you last saw me. Like a snake you disappeared into the cool shade of stones as to not feel the wrath of our burning home. Our  home you let it burn down and become the kind of ash no phoenix  could ever rise from. Because what you left was venom.