steel tulips

steel tulips Feb 2015

they took out an ***** that left a scar
like a zipper on your perfect stomach.
I kissed it as i was kissing down your chest,
and stopped,
to kiss your lips again,
because i remembered you are human,
and that scar meant you aren't as invincible as i thought you were,
and that's an unshakeable thought,
so i kissed your lips to make sure you were still there.

steel tulips Feb 2015

Be My Valentine

your smile is ******* amazing.
but so is the solemn look you get when you stare at my lips
and so is the one you get when you run your hands slowly down my hips
you are a beautiful person.
you love your dog more than most people can love each other
you drive me at midnight in the middle of the winter to get tacos and have a picnic
When you kiss me, eyes closed
I feel your light seep into my bones
its the closest thing to heaven I've ever known

steel tulips Jan 2015

I have no one (20w)

I have no one,
To remind me how I feel
After I drink peach schnapps

It's meant to be you

steel tulips Jan 2015

Haikus

one
You took it from me
You smiled as you thrusted
You said you were drunk

two
You were perfection
I pretended you were one
Then everything changed

three
You smoked cigarettes
You listened said I was not alone
I cheated on two

four
You were just a friend
You kept asking if I was okay
You knew I wasn't

five
Blue eyes and shyness
You mended with tender love
We were meant to be

six
We needed fixing
You were from the golden coast
We drank honey ale

seven
You were a long lost friend
That still tastes like cigarettes
You were cold and rough

eight*
You love holding my hand
We've waited so long for this
We fit in each others groves

steel tulips Jan 2015

a date(!)

we hold hands

and

kiss

in the theatre,

just like the movies

and I'm so nervous

I can barely follow the plot

your breathing

is so distracting,

and so is your hand on my knee,

I've never been so aware of my knee

and now it feels lonely

steel tulips Jan 2015

Dormant Love

We miss the movie and drive home from the theatre. Curl up even though it's much too hot out to be this close. The fan drones on, trying to blow the hair off my shinny face. You play with my fingers as you recite the next line in Jurassic Park I tell you not to ruin it, though I know the words too. You smile and kiss my closed mouth until it opens. I tell you I didn't realize that I missed you this much, and that we've had a dormant kind of love.

steel tulips Jan 2015

New hobbies

I have been smoking
Three malboros
Each night I drink
To prove to you that I've changed
Into something you'll hate
And my naive ****** throat
burns with the smoke
But it does not burn
as much as being alone
it was your birthday
three days ago