right on time you do not comply
and once again I'm left waiting for you.
Your sweetness will not always be able to make up for the disappointments.
One day your velvet voice will not be enough to make me forget.
Until then, I will write down your wrongs, until maybe they sink in.

you are so tender and selfish,  

when you  keep calling me sweet things,

after you tell me you can't have me.

I am so willing to keep feeling,

that I just smile through the lonely,

and desperately accept pain.

most nights i sleep on the side that isn't mine,
because when you used to share a bed with me you would insist on stealing my spot.
i feel as if your arms are always about to grab on to my waist,
i stay on this side to feel you like i once did,
even though i can never sleep,
because its not my side of the bed.

you threaten me
when i do not abide by your rules of sweetness and understanding
you say you don't want me if i feel less than happy

i spoke of you in the past tense
i spoke of you with a scarlet ex
the words got caught in my throat
and clung on trying not  to escape my lips
to make those horrible sounds of truth
exist
i choked on the words,
i sputtered and coughed before i could even finish the sentence
he said "are you okay miss?"
as i bent over wheezing
i recovered,
i gestured to what i was wearing,
"this was my boyfriend's jean jacket."

I don't think I have ever been so powerless
I will spend every morsel of a moment with you before you go
If you want me to
I'll do anything you want to make this sweetness last
To make the agony of you leaving me last
before it turns to numbness
You are great to be  powerless to,
You are so easy to love
And so easily love.
This is the bitterest sweetness, I've ever had.
The only sweetness I've ever had,
Losing my only sweetness,
Makes the taste of loss so bitter.  
I never knew I could love like this.
I never knew love could mean honesty and trust.
I never knew it could mean tenderness and  lust.
you make me a person I want to be around
You helped me widdle away the stubborn
and smooth out the self,
in self esteem.
Without your patient and hard working hands,
my Self will turn rough and dull again.
I'll have to face myself
while you go off
and carve out you're own dreams
And leave me after you have shown me how sweet it all could be.