Still I ache,
Its been four months since our last date.
Images of your face,
Still run through my mind most days.
I remember you in my shower,
I remember you in my chair,
I remember you half naked taking up space
And breathing my air.
I remember you kissing my nose with smiling lips,
I remember you placing entitled hands on the curve of my hips.
Okay maybe four months ago we weren't so good,
But how about the twelve before those? or the other sixteen before those?
Do you ever, find yourself remembering me?
Do you remember me smiling as I kissed your cheek?
Still I ache,
And its been four months since I've seen your face.

My hands are fidgeting as I think of you.
My palms are sweating just thinking of your name.
I miss you too much for it to be sane.
Hollow are my insides,
as my smile subsides.
Because I can't hide the truth,
I love you,
and I can't figure out why,
no tears left to cry.
No matter how tightly I hold myself together,
the pieces of me keep falling apart.

stay, hold my cold hands,
in your always warm ones
stay, in this everlasting rain,
i'll keep you company
stay, hold my worn helpless heart,
it gets so tired when we're apart
stay, for me
stay, for me

*please?

The loyal the lovely will always be left
Lovers like leaving the once lonely making them only more lonely then before.
My lovers love and then leave
Why am I so easily left?
There must be too much longing in my loving gaze
There must be too much lonesome in my lonely face.
Must be why the love I find always strays away.

i was done when you stopped caring whether  i texted you when i was home "safe" or not

i was finished when your glossed over lazy ******* eyes stopped focusing on my thighs and lingered on hers
(but there were so many)
i was done when you stopped hearing the catches in my voice and the the dead air on the phone
really i was finished that day you got angry at me when i forgot my keys, and we had to walk back a block.
as if i were wasting your precious  time
i was done that time the guy on your football team let it slip that you were sleeping in a strange bed, oh but it wasn't strange to you was it?
really i should have been finished before it started but i didn't count on falling ever so deeply in love with you.
and loving you blindly.
kindly.
until the day i die
-ly.

you are hungry yet tender eyes
you are warm kisses that unravel white lies

you are my eyelashes to your cheek
you are the bandaids you put on the soles of my feet

you are appreciation;
of the only humble crumbs of love I can muster to give you

you contently take them;
you give my malnourished heart
a flourish of sparks;

as you try to revive it.
with your sweetness you try to revive it.
with your patience you try to revive it.

you are sweetness
you are patience

I never knew could exist
you unfastened my stressed clenched fists
with perfectly balanced gentle lips

you are my sweetness
you are my patience