And tonight I sit here in front of thiis screen
wondering what actions my mind will let my body perform
wondering what thoughts my body will let my mind think.
this is my downfall, the reason I will be trampled
by my peers as they become real people.
more than the way I have been bred;
to have no opinions
to not  talk
to have no life.
more than that intraceable bit of laziness;
this is my downfall
The fact that I've always been two people,
a body and a mind.
And they are  always fighting,
themselves as much as each other.
both are like a transplanted *****,
fighting the other
but i have no medication.
so most nights i just sit here and watch me fight with myself.
neither ever wins
and sometimes I think half a person is better than both.
This has taken place forever
since i was first tall enough to see my ugly face in a mirror
and my mind revolted from it
and so for every second since
my mind has turned my body toward the mirror
and my mind has turned my body the other way.
but neither love themselves:
my body has left countless scars on itself
and my mind screams at itself so loudly sometimes
that other thoughts are impossible.
This is why I'm broken
why I spend five hours awake just sitting
with a pile of homework
that grows
and grows
and grows
sitting in front of me.
and i stare at it
as three wars continue within me.
I stay still so as not to wake the armies
so I don't lose
but the piles growing
and I'm losing as i sit here

You savage
Beast
Die,die
DIE!
Evil lurks
Your near
Demonic eyes
No soul
My hate is true
You lack any
Sympathy
Any care
Can such a
Monster
Have a heart
I never knew
A creature like you
Can play nice
But it's never long
Before true colors
Are revealed.

I cant seem to breath anymore
and I'm falling onto the floor.
You're all I think about anymore
you're the one I have been waiting for.

Broken I couldn't ask for more.
Moping I could not take this anymore.
Stolen out on the back porch
and I'm beginning to lose the torch .
Hoping that someday you'll show yourself.
Torn up you've gone and turned me down.

I cant seem to breathe anymore
and I'm falling onto the floor.
You're all I think about anymore
you're the one I have been waiting for.

One day when we were together
you said I hope this lasts forever.
Days later you left me for another.
Some times I wish I loved another.

One day we'll come together again.
Some day all of this pain will end.
Broken and there's nothing to do about it.
I couldn't help it if I were to shout it.

Black dawn screaming from all around
and I'm still broken down on the ground.
Tears fall drowning out all the light.
Now I cant tell nights from days.

I cant seem to breathe anymore
and I'm falling onto the floor.
You're all I think about anymore
you're the one I have been waiting for.

I can not see your eyes
they are hidden by the night.
I feel your lips.
My hands are placed on your hips.

I cant seem to breathe anymore
and I'm falling onto the floor.
You're all I think about anymore
you're the one I have been waiting for

This time he said there might be
Hurricanes inside of me
But surley there's too much of planet earth
Left for me to see
He's the only one
Who doesn't underestimate me
Lack of interest
In the lives
Of the wealthy
Sends me to my room
What to do
When there's life
Inside of you
Maybe I'll get drunk
And you can get drunk too
And we'll lay under my ceiling
Try to figure out the meaning
Of life and death
And everything

And the thrill
I have the will
You have the way with words
You know exactly what you want to say
But I still have to learn
There's nothing I want more
Than to tell you how I feel
But sometimes I get
Paranoid
That I'm not real
And if reality is fake
Then we'd better hold on tight
For our sanity's sake
I don't know my left and right
Or what to give and how to take
Which hearts to mend
And which to break
Should I let these people hear the music that I make?

Cause the music that I make
It's the simplest part of me
Would you show the world your ***** naked body?
Although I'm not ashamed
Sometimes I still worry
That it's all a lie
But I still try
And the weight I carry
It's heavy now
I'm sinking down
To a box
Inside a box
I'll secure the key
You can throw away the locks
I may never feel the need
To tell myself to stop
Time is ticking by
But I'm not noticing the clock

If X marks the spot
You can draw it on my heart
Cause sometimes I feel
I need something
To help it make a start
Taking blood from my veins
Purify
Relieve the pain
Then send it off
Again away
To my body
Numb and cold
I always do as I am told
Cept when I do
As I do next
Rip my heart out
From my chest
Extract the passion
From my head
And with this
In peace
I rest.

What I see is not
What you see
We both see differently
We somehow still see the beauty

I see Nothing matters
I see Subtle changes
I see life as a dream
I can see if your free

No Worries
No Hopes
No Dream
But yet everything comes to me

I write to tell
To help
Inspire and share
How I view the world

Because baby
I could never say this to you
It would destroy us
Just move on

Never hopeless
Passion keeps me going
Because when you have nothing
Passion seems like something

To live for.

Angels melt like candlewax upon their pedestals
And I stand here to find with you this heaven of mine has flown
Though some may find me ignorant of more than apparent facts
I still find myself in the man who carried out such acts

You helped me though you broke me and I must thank you for this
My body is somewhat stronger from the virus in your kiss
And these angels made of candlewax can be reformed with just a flame
Though, in sorrow, something was lost which will never make it the same

So who am I to get down on bended knees when tears come to my eye
Pray tell me soon if tears will help my journey to the sky
For though your intent may have been to break me, in survival lies my will
And I may not be flying soon, but I'm not standing still