When i am around you
My time is frozen
I want to be near you
With hope to be poison

I am not crazy
For this is just me
I want to be poison
By your smile and carefree

I want to hear your voice
To be intoxicated  by your scent
My heart is pounding
And face blushing so red
I want to stare into those eyes
That feels my heart to brim

What is this feeling
Like diving into deep ocean
A new found love
So carefully hidden

I stopped myself from falling,
maybe that's a good thing, that I don't have to go all the way,
but I can't help but wonder if I'm ruining it
destroying my heart's capacity for complete love
and it's true, I won, it's through-
but is it a good thing that I cut myself off from loving you?
will I ever be able to let myself go again?
and if someone ends up loving me, what will I do?