you were just as lost
as the ocean around you

i’ve been waiting for twenty minutes
outside of your apartment,
my mom even called to make sure I was okay,
I told you her you let me in

listening to a song that reminds me of us
and i'm in the kitchen, cooking ramen
while you're asleep upstairs
and i can't stop crying over the ***

my body begged itself to run to safety
but my heart carried itself,
right to you

when things get tough
you bail to someone new

i know i can be cruel,
but so can you.

she flicked you to the ground
and stomped to put you out

i could be asleep
but instead i'm up writing poems about
you.

i hope this eats its way around
every inch and corner of your mind

i’m chasing after you as the pale sun
falls back into the gloom
shadows of your silhouette
now left inside a vacant room

these dim low lights reflect off of my bedroom wall,
where you still hang.
i’m painting detailed pictures of you
in my mind, on a hazy day.

i still take care of all your things
that’s what you would have wanted
that’s what I’ll do

you lived like two streets away,
and I would walk with you to school every day.
we spent the summers suffering through
but it was fine, I got to talk to you.

my skin was still ice
and you couldn't handle the cold
while hers is the heat
and you're burning yourself at the touch

I was alone
surrounded by sharks
I had to live in infested waters
and I had to be careful not to bleed.

my skin was ice
and you despised the cold

i won't pass on how lonely this feels.
it feels like i'm the last person on earth
the only one to celebrate my success
while you're one room away from  mine.

these lips were a red fire
and you curled into them
like they were the only thing
to keep you warm