I tried.
I swear I tried.
And I always loved you.
Like the earth loves the sun.
And I tried to gaze upon your grace
But instead I lost my sight.
I lost sight of what was important.

I lost sight of you.
And I’m regaining my sight.
Oh, I’m back.
And you will see me soon.

I thought I saw your face in the water
So I jumped in to find you.
I cannot hold my breath any longer.
Please don’t make me try.

Just show yourself.

I don’t mind being haunted
But did it have to be you?
Your voice, so sweet.

It almost makes me forget
The things you’re saying to me.

It almost makes me forget
Why I tied these cinder blocks to my feet
And jumped into the river.

I suppose I just was too eager,
Too ready to end the pain.

But people aren’t novocaine
I should’ve known better than this.

You were poison in the well
But I was dying of thirst.
Even a slow death was okay
If it meant I got to spend it with you.

She spoke in storms,
Telling stories about places
That never existed
Except in her head.

She was a hurricane, just waiting to happen.
And I was too eager,
To explore the ruins of her mind.

Oh, what a smile she had,
Light up a room.
Illuminate my heart.
I wish I could see it that way again
I wish I could see it
Anywhere but my nightmares.