I'm worse than a dog
When it comes to falling in love
A few minutes of talking
And that's it
I'm done and over
Completely into you

Break your back
Rip apart your ribs
Scream until you cough blood
What are you looking for?
Maybe that one thing
You can call your own
You may never find it
But keep searching for
Your heart
It might be in there somewhere

Your legs gave out on you
Just as I thought my tear ducts had
Given up on me
But at the sight of you dragging your
Skeletal carcass across the floor
Once again Tears sprung to my eyes
Dampening the cloth of my shirt
As you tumble trying to get to your feet
I try to help
To reason with you
This is not the end
Why won't you listen?

It hurts so bad I forgot how to cry
I still smile through each day
Stumbling
Blind
To everything I feel
Blundering towards the unknown
Not a tear will fall
Sometimes
It just gets hard to see
Hard to push my numb legs to walk
And my tingling fingers to feel again
Blatantly lying to each face i see
A smile will make them forget,
My scream
Tear-filled eyes bubbling up
Clenching and unclenching fists
The inability to breath  
My lungs burn as I give up the ability
To fight back
I can't run I am stuck

You break my bones like tooth picks
And act like it was no small feat
Good job
You broke me
Well I broke me too
A long time ago
So
I win

Life's got me
No time to write
No time to think
So here I am begging to breathe
Taking a moment just for you
And me

I am the kind of person
Who will
Do anything for what she wants
I am also the person
Who loses interest and gets bored
Very quickly
Please if I want you
Walk away
All I do is burn love
Breaking it into thousands of pieces
Crushing what I can get ahold of
Spoiling the sweet part of it
That's who I am
Burning bright
While I take you apart

So many stars in my nights sky tonight
I'm counting every one
For you
Not because you wanted me too
But because I wanted you to see just
How much I love you
I'll keep counting every night
For the rest of my life
I'll always have hope with
You right here by my side
So lay next to me on the grass
Pitch black night
Our only lights will be the stars
Hold my hand and
We'll be alright
Even if it's just for tonight

I hate being the strong one
The one everyone knows they can rely on
When I cry they're confused
I'm not the one who can do that
When I break they don't get it
I can't do that either
But I do
And I fix things before I give them to others
My smile
My laugh
Everything I say
I filter it into what they need
They need to hear it so I say it
Sometimes I forget
And I show them who I really am
I show them the person I am behind the strength
The fragile being I truly am inside
They get scared and confused
And run away from me
Or they stay and try to fix me
I don't appreciate that
I fix myself by helping you
And if you start helping me
I may just fall apart completely

Kiss me
And tell me everything is going to be
Alright
Tell me
You love me
But don't lie
Actually mean it this time
I hope you mean it this time
If you don't love true
Walk away
Run if you have to
In the opposite direction in which
I do
Maybe I need you
I don't want to find out
So break all that we made
And stop lying

I have violence in my heart
Pumping it's way through my veins
Sneaking all around my body
I can feel it
Whispering in my ear
Tugging at my fingers
Coursing through my legs
As I run
From the person I though I knew
So so well
Who turned out to be
A stranger
That lived in me all along
My shadow
Who just now took over
Instead of licking at my heels
It caught up to me
Tackled me and yet I stand
You can't touch me
And I can live

Why do we do this
Why am I so stupid
What can't you do that I need
I love you but I hate you more
The hate outweighs the love by much  I said that I needed you at one point
I may have been lying
Because I'm fine here
Without you and all of your crazy
But what was it really that forced us
To be friends in the first place
To create that bond I'm trying so hard to break
What is it about you that breaks me
Breaks me down into little pieces
Every syllable of Every word
And every feeling you make me feel
Maybe that's just it
I have a need to break things
So I build us up only
To break us down
Because I need that
Nothing else in this world can I break
More than everything we have
That's me
That's why

The sun shines
Even on rainy days
You just can't see it
But what happens when
Everyday is a rainy one
When you never actually get to see
the sun
You know it's there
It's still warm
But you lost it
And you can't seem to find it
And every night gets darker
And darker
You cover your head with blankets
And tuck your feet in
Hoping the night won't get dark enough
To consume you

Your stomach is 10 ft underground and you feel like throwing up
You notice your palms are clammy and a drop of sweat slowly slips down your arm
You’ve already bitten at 8 of your 10 nails that you were immensely proud of growing out
And three of your fingertips have dried blood following the curvature of your fingers
You start tapping your feet, tapping your hands in an effort to remain calm
Waiting for the answer you slowly unravel and lose the twine

You make me think there's a chance
One for love
Maybe
But then
You change your mind
I think
I hope you don't think we're a game
I don't
And I don't want to play

Death is like losing something
You wanted to keep forever

Love doesn't exist with people like you
You destroy your life
You create to break it down
Burning what feels right
Why? Why? Why?
What's wrong with you
You feel like this because... Of what?
Are you broken?
It's harsh to think that this
Is me.

You made me love the rain
and then you left me
to walk in it alone.

Blood stains clothing not skin
If it did however
Your hands would be dripping
Never ending
You make me bleed
Inside and out
From the heart
That's where you start
Then you drag your fingers
Across my beaten flesh
And lick your lips with desire
For everything you do you enjoy
No matter how horrible
Or gory
Your eyes burn with contempt
Every drop of blood you take
Is taken from me
I should've have let you take it
Right from the start
But I trusted you
With my most valuable possession
My heart
You shredded it with your teeth
And sliced it with your own heart
Though it may not beat
It is cold as ice
And sharp to the touch
That's how you broke me down
And brought me to your level
I don't know how I feel anymore
Because you posses me

Thanks for breaking me
*i give up

The world will find you and make you see it
Even when you turn your head away
Scared to see what it may hold
Scared of all the things you do not know
And yet the world turns your head and pushes your eyes open
Not allowing you the sweet surrender of ignorance