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Jan 2014 spahrkling

Jay

The way her hair framed her face
was unlike anything I had ever seen.
It accentuated her character far too beautifully.
She often stayed shying away under it,
but when brushed away,
it revealed the most adorable face.
Her smile hidden behind hands.
She was fragile and amazing.
And as I gazed into her eyes,
I felt something I haven't in a long time.

Let's run away together.
Leave everything else.
And please, let me look into
those passionate eyes of
yours a little bit longer.

Jan 2014 spahrkling

Daisies

Jan 2014 spahrkling

Lily Gabrielle

Daisies

My mind is a garden;
Overgrown,
Blooming far to much for my own good.
Every August a flower appears to shower me with water,
Touch a petal to my cheek,
And wilt away
As each
"I love you"
Turns frail in my fingertips.
A red rose grew
Ridden with thorns;
I couldn't hold on long
Without bleeding.
Garden filled with weeds
petals blocking sun,
Impossible to breathe.
Red as fire,
Borne of blood
Dew turned to rain
Until I couldn't tell tears
From flood.
I loved you still.
Winter came and nipped your neck
But you grew
Into someone else's garden.
And on valentines day,
You made her eyes like daisies.

Jan 2014 spahrkling

you and me

Jan 2014 spahrkling

Ashley

you and me

i'm frightened
by everything you do
whether you it be opening your mouth to speak
or walking down the hall towards me
your actions make me nervous
so nervous that I begin to tear at my nails
or tap my pen frequently on the table
I feel my body begin to shake
but I refuse to show it;
how much you've scarred me
I cringe when you lift a hand
I bite my lips when you yell at me blindly
the other part of me thinks of ways
ways that you'd hurt me
maybe a out of hand argument
or a reckless but intentional car accident
i don't know when it became this way
all I know is that;
i'm frightened
not only by you

but me, too.

Jan 2014 spahrkling

smug

Jan 2014 spahrkling

Infamous one

smug

I dont like being ignored eventually I'll get caught up in my life and you'll want back in.
I care for you but you broke me I had to heal and forget you it was hard.
One morning I woke up saying never again will I empower the hurt you caused me. Ive worked up the confidence to start new. Not looking for anything just making my life better. I havent given up on love just hoping the right girl finds me.
ive been enjoying my favorite movies and feeling like myself. Loud music driving fast and maling time to write it helps me find peace within.

Jan 2014 spahrkling

dissection

Jan 2014 spahrkling

Infamous one

dissection

Mouth sealed dealing with rude
Then play the victim when I get an attitude
Ive been nothing but loyal and true
Why you keep treating me so cruel
You tell me your problems like I caused them
Keep holding on to the past
I saw you as my future
Everything we had is now history
Now its over if it worked out that's the mystery
On my way to better
You chose to settle for less
Focused on progress
I was good and we failed not going to obsessed

Jan 2014 spahrkling

Perfection

Jan 2014 spahrkling

rained-on parade

Perfection

I hope you
never find
someone
like me

Because then
you will find
another person you
can call
Perfect.

Jan 2014 spahrkling

rinse

Jan 2014 spahrkling

Infamous one

rinse

How do you know your not the one
She wanted to see other guys
I loved her and didnt want to be around that
Being her friend I had no option
I feared falling in love because it caged my heart
Turns out im the one caging others out
If I hurt her it hurt me more
If she hurt me it destroys my every being
I couldnt force her to love me or stay
If it was meant to be it would've worked out
Ive told if I dont fight for her I don't deserve her
I want to say she doesnt deserve me but its not about being right
These confusing emotions cluttered up within
I knew this would make or break me
I felt good vibes and took that risk
Shes in my heart and will always be missed

Jan 2014 spahrkling

A Permanent Winter pt 1

Jan 2014 spahrkling

George C

A Permanent Winter pt 1

A man lonely and so cold,
Trying hard to grasp an aura
He assumes to trust to not reveal the hidden,
Until unknown souls spot the flaw

Abruption,
Cowardly thoughts he fails to hold back,
Paranoid, so paranoid his nerves become barbed,
His mind darkened as he's blinded,
His words cruelly reversing any remaining trust,
His screams so beyond chilling they sear the mere
Love left in a heart

Though only so few understand to not blame,
To not blame a man ensconced by a cold world,
Only trying to survive with a fire he himself sadly creates

Jan 2014 spahrkling

Crucial moment

Jan 2014 spahrkling

unsolvedemotions

Crucial moment

The night hasn't came yet
But the light, I barely see them
How did I get here?
In this long dark tunnel
Alone
And it's cold
I found myself
Wrapped with nothing
But misery
Wonder if I would ever be free?

But
Do I want to be free?
I don't know
I don't know what I want
I don't know what I'm searching for
Is it freedom? Is it love?
Are those the solutions
To my problems?

I'm surrounded by darkness
So darkness I became
At first I thought I needed
Just some time alone
But
I came to realise
That I need it way too often

I don't hate everyone
I don't hate this world either
I don't know
I just feel like by distancing myself
Everything feels much better
It's just that
Life is so cruel
One moment, I'm the happiest girl
The next second
I found myself crying to some sad songs
One moment, it was perfect
But you know what they said
Some things are
Just too good to be true
Again, I'm an emotional wreck

It's tiring
I gotta admit that
But if I gave up now
What have I gained?
Nothing, absolutely nothing
I know I have to move on
I know I have to keep moving forward
And I will

But not now

At this crucial moment
I need some time alone
So just let me be
And don't even bother to come search for me