Will you ever say your sorry
to me,
Will you ever say you regretted
what you did to me,
Will you ever repent your sins
to The Lord, and say
What you did to Roy and me
was wrong and that you
wished you never did it to us.

I have never heard it once,
This is because you have no consciences,
You are just like the rest of those
who can't say they are sorry what
they have done to me .

I know this is a terrible thing to say,
I really don't miss you in any way,
You were no better than Anna, in any way,
You both destroy my life in your own way.

The way we live is the way we die,
You took with you to many lives,
You destroyed two unborn children,
no consciences at the time,
You thought of yourself and not the unborn life.

When we live by the sword we die by the sword,
When we cause pain we suffer with the same horrid pain.

Perhaps if you had lived your life another way,
You would still be alive to see another day.
Your children are rotten to the core, and Anna
can't even raise them anymore.

Alissa destroyed John she did not care, but where
she learned that I dare not say where?

Did you care when you destroyed my life at all?
No, Anna and you were both rotten to the core.

I hope that God shows you mercy on judgment day,
or he will send you to far worse place.

I did cry some over you because thank God above I am not
like Anna nor you.
I was your sister in every word and I wanted you to
know that I was different from you and I pray
that God shows you justice and mercy when he
passes judgment on you.

I had a brother that was older than me,
my mother and father took him away from me,
I was twelve and he was nearly twenty-three,
my parent's did not care what they did to me,

My parent's drove him out of their house,
This is because he could not live they way
they wanted him to be,

I was only seven and he was nearly seventeen,
They drove my beloved oldest brother, Larry, away from me.

He was an artist, a poet, and a writer just like me,
what my parent's did to him they did to me,
I just outlived both of them yes indeed, I made it until
I was fifty-six years old indeed.

Now these many years have come and gone,
my dearest brother, Larry, is an angel and
he still writes his celestial songs in the heaven above,
He left this world when he was nearly twenty-three, and
I remember the tears of a brother that was taken from
me.
In Loving remembrance of my eldest brother,
Benjamin L. Wesson
Born December 8, 1944 to August 8, 1967
I will always love you and I will never forget you.

I come from a dysfunctional family
right from the very start,
I come from a dysfunctional family,
because not one of them had a warm heart,
I witnessed sister against sister,
brother against brother,
two parent's that always drank *****,
when they weren't arguing it is because
they were a fast a sleep in their bed room.

I was born into a dysfunctional family,
where no love was ever shown to me,
I saw my parent's send their oldest son
out into the cold world at 23.

When my oldest sister turned 17, she left my parent's
house because she could not take it see each other tearing each other
apart,

The youngest sister what can I say, she started to live in sin with a man
twice her age, but at least they made marriage work,
than what I would like to say,  is she happy this I don't know,
she says she is but I don't know, they were separated for some time,
because all they did was argue just like our parent's did all the time.

I stayed in my parent's apartment until I was 18 year old,  so I could legally leave,
I did the first of two mistakes I married a man who really did not love me.
The only good thing I could say about him he let me see the world,
but he was dreadfully cruel to me and I had leave him for my own good.

Now both my mother and father are dead,
so is oldest brother and sister,  I don't know which way
they were judged and nor if they went to heaven.

I live my life in a quiet way, no one do I bother
I am this way for a reason because I all alone, because
all of those men I have loved have already been called
home.

You never loved me like you said,
right from the very start,
You never really loved me,
from deep down in your heart,
You reminded me of my parent's
very cruel and mean as they were to me,

You promised to take care me,
This promise you never meant to keep,
When I grew sick, you left me, and
tried to mold me into someone you
wanted me to be, rather than just
to accept me the way God meant me
to be.

Your love was like dry ice, it burnt me and I had leave,
It was my life or your life, and this wasn't meant to be,
You were a heartless man, with no loving in your heart,
I should have listen to my cousin from the very start.

Time has come and time has gone, you are now alone,
but no second chances I will give you, and you have no place
call home.

Even your own family has turned their backs on you,
Do you ask yourself why every night, it is because of you.

To The Only Husband I Really Loved,
with all my heart,
To The Only Husband I really loved,
right from the very start,
when our blue eyes first met one another
we knew we were meant to be,
but than my sister and the State had other
plans and they both destroyed you and me.

We never stopped loving each other,
although we did depart,
I remember the very last words you told me,
You had never stopped loving me,
You told me I was a good woman,
I told you there was no such thing,

You told me you wished me were still married,
and to this I had to agree,

When I was told that you died of cancer in
November of 2008, it broke my fragmented heart,
this is because you were the only husband I really
loved for the very start.

Three years have come and gone, and I miss you
very much, but  I know one day we will see each
other in heaven up above.

In Loving Remembrance of Roy L. Mock
December 13, 1953- November 25, 2008
Always loved but never forgotten.

Eternity,  I wonder how it must be,
I long to see it, oh Lord, please take me,
I look up into your bright blue skies,
I see your creation and I am one
of them who must die,
Eternity its beauty and grace,
I think of no other place,
I think of those that I have loved and
died,
I know they must be waiting for me
up in the celestial skies
They wait for me at heaven's gate,
My tears run down my face,
The real reason why I cry,
is because I am granting eternal
life.