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Oct 2013 Sorrow

Bambi

I hurt myself today. To see if I still feel. I focus on the pain; the only thing thats real. ~ Nine Inch Nails
I wish that sometimes I can really show myself, without being questioned.
I want to speak my mind, without being blocked or suffocated.
What have I become. My sweetest friend. Everyone I know goes away in thee end. ~ Nine Inch Nails
I know right when I publish this my grandma will call and question, so my mom will go on unpost, leaving me raveled, taken together, question in a box. Yet again I must be questioned.
Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, decades roll by dragging my decaying body behind it.
Im to young to drive away.
Im to afraid to run.
What will happen when I get home today?
I question myself, I order myself.
It is killing me not to speak.
Yet I must remain quiet.
I am sorry, for I must remain concealed.
You did raise me right.
You did treat me well.
Its me.
Beneath the stains of time. The feelings disappear. You were someone else I am still right here. ~ Nine Inch Nails

Oct 2013 Sorrow

feeling rough

Oct 2013 Sorrow

Alysia Michelle

feeling rough

today should have been fun
but i was irritated
tired
constantly ready to snap
i am a mess
need
sleep
i'm cranky
feeling mean
want to be kind
but i feel the need to scream
someone take me away for a while
i feel trapped in this town
someone make me smile
before i drown.

Oct 2013 Sorrow

snow

Oct 2013 Sorrow

typhany

snow

i am a waste of time and space;
if only my mistakes were erased,
then i could run to you
and make our hearts brand new...
my girl, she can't make me feel
'cause my thoughts just make me reel.
there's no where left for me-
pathetic's all i'll ever be.
just remember, you're the one who left,
and with you, my heart, your greatest theft.
things are darkest in my soul;
**** this, i need a bowl
i need my fix, my pill, my blow
i need my smoke, my dope, my snow

Oct 2013 Sorrow

15 & Naive

Oct 2013 Sorrow

escape

15 & Naive

When you told me you loved me
I believed every word said
Love struck on hope
Dreaming of the best

I thought you'd stand by me
I thought that you cared
I thought we'd kiss passionately
I had no reason to be scared

Then I saw you with her
Looking deep into her eyes
Telling her your feelings
Telling her your lies

I suppose I was naive
15 and insecure
You never even gave
My feelings a second thought

It's just like they say
In time you'll find the one
I used to think that was you
But for now, I'm done

Oct 2013 Sorrow

Sleeper

Oct 2013 Sorrow

wandabitch

Sleeper

I discovered I cried at night
With you laying next to me. My pillow wet and cold.
Staring. At your shoulder.
Beckoning to hold a piece of me.

The heat from your body burned
My light leaves,
And I shiver as you wake.

Speaking through a dream.
Wish I could sleep.

Oct 2013 Sorrow

1 am "I don't know what to think" currently.

Oct 2013 Sorrow

Shanon Lee

1 am "I don't know what to think" currently.

It's not like I was trying to get away.
I knew
that this road
was going to hit a
dead end.
I didn't want to get caught up
in this head on collision
of what I thought was a
soul connection
rather than just
false intimacy.

I thought that when we touched
it was a charge
that could light up the solar systems
or these streets
and
in our eyes
or fill our veins
with an adrenaline rush
that could only amount
to the closest feeling
of feeling alive.

But I don't want to feel this real again.

Take two of this movie scene
that I never asked to screenplay
and I'm tired of the same plot twists
again
and again.
I'm not your cheesy script
waiting to be denied and burned,
tossed and scrapped.
I don't want to be a torn piece of
anything.

But hey,
at least we had fun while it lasted.
don't expect for me to not
feel a little ashamed
or blame you
for doing what you do best:
"Attention *****-ing"
your life
while dropping
everyone who
mattered
behind
anyways.