Your biggest smile
As you tell stories
Names I haven't heard before
Fondness I haven't encountered

I think you're really pretty
My toe is poking through my sock
And I hope you had fun tonight

everything's perfectly aligned on screen
IM windows in the corner,
my several pinned tabs:
email, poetry, music, analytics stuff,
and a book a girl told me about
my desk is a disaster:
a book about curing moods
from one of my best friends
tax papers, pay stubs,
eye drops, spent soccer tickets,
a can of anti-itch spray,
plastic bbs, empty boxes,
and paraphernalia
the clock only keeps ticking
and I wonder if the devil in me
will come out in my dreams again tonight
I hope I don't wake up on the floor again

I want you
to make
eye contact
with me,
to move
toward me,
to reach
down
with your hand
and take
mine,
roll your
head
to the side,
give me
your best
kiss me look
where you
bite your
bottom lip,
and when I
come in close
and we're
about to lock lips,

I stop

and tell you to *******

What do you think
when you drive by
and look into those
glass buildings
Young kids, classy,
must be doing
something important
Smart college kids
Learning
They may have a better brain
for absorbing mostly
useless information,
but when it comes to
living a life,
they're just as ******* dumb
as anyone
Let me tell you something
This lesson's free
It doesn't matter if
they come home
carrying bags of money
They'll never be any more content
than you can be

I do serious ****,
but I'm not that serious
or maybe I am
because you haven't
been where I've been,
or done what I've done,
have you?

Yes,
I'm older
Yes,
I stay up later than you in spite
Yes,
I have a nightmare all day in my mind

But put your hand here,
find the center of my chest,
and ease a bit to my left

Can you feel it?