Somedays
I feel too pretty for you
And others
I crawl beneath your shoes
And ask you to
Step on me

Then I thought about how
You only make me cry
Bone breaking loneliness
Creeping all inside

In the dark
You only have your soul.

He’s lying next to her
While dreaming of me
And
My bed is cold

Press on

Even when you are walking through

A field of razor blades barefoot

You just

Press on, baby

Press the **** on

So if I meant something
Mean it
Mean what you say
And do it
Fire beneath your finger tips
I’ll be ash

Don’t you miss me
Isn’t it unbearable
How are you happy
Can I be happy too
Please
Can I be happy too

Wasting your breath

There are some things

That will only change

With age

I really really
Just want you to be happy
I want you to be happy
For the rest of your life
I hope I see you again
Before we die

You could have said
You don’t want me
And don’t flatter yourself
I didn’t do what I did
Because of you

“You’ve been done
So *****
So many times”

You did me the filthiest
Didn’t you
You absolutely *******
Wrecked me

I will get married again.
I will have children again.
I will have a family.
I will grow old without you.
And you.
You will never know what you want.
You will become an old story I tell,
When my grandchildren ask me,
About life
And love.

I loved you.
I loved you.
And
I will never know, what would be.

Call me

Goodmorning
I hope you thought of me
When your eyes opened

Goodnight
I hope I was the last thing
You thought of
Before you closed your eyes
Next to her

I miss you more
Than
The day before

Small things only mattered now
We take pieces of ourselves for granted
I am telling you
When you lose chunks so big
A quiet night in
With small conversation
Is something special and dear to you
I wish I could give you my eyes
To see what I have seen

But then maybe
You'd just give them back to me
I think that's why most of the time
I would rather be asleep
Small things only mattered now.

I just
want to hear your voice

A hopeless romantic thinks they will crumble when their soulmate builds a life with someone else
But a logical person knows we can survive this, if we push on
And that suffering can be so much worse
Do you think if you couldn’t see the sunrise anymore
You would still miss it
Or wouldn’t it just become your new normal

I wish I knew
why you won’t
Talk to me

Intrepid followers
For
The blameless god of love
Giving their hearts for sacrifice
For their chance
To be eaten up

The sun rises
And you think of me

-this is a fact of life-

Here I am
Missing you hard enough
I wonder if I keep missing you hard enough
you might
Materialize right here
If I close my eyes
I could solidify you
Make you real
In my head you are driving to me
Or maybe someone drives you to me
But it’s not really
And tomorrow comes

Last night I dreamt
We shared a meal
And you were smiling
I was smiling too

Call me
Call me and I’ll answer
Just like I always have
Call me

Give me a sign
That you feel this way too
But deep down
Nothing need be said
I know the truth
About me and you
Love love love

I miss you
In a way so deep
It’s woven into me
It has its fingers so deep in my soul
I yearn and yearn for you
I wonder when we will
Run into each other
Again

Life is ok
And then I remember
Here we are on the same earth
Getting older apart from each other
And God,
That’s gotta be a sin somewhere
I wonder if I get on my hands and knees
And pray
Will I get to be near you again
My soul is thirsty for only
Something
You
Can quench

You are the love of my life
The most intelligent
Amazing
Funny
Human being I’ve ever met
And nothing comes close to
What we had
Not even a whisper
You are my soul
I was sitting at this red light
Thinking about all the moments with you
And how good they were
I can’t stop missing you

Just enough to miss
But never enough to stay

I open my eyes and
There you are in my mind
Can’t I please hold you again

I hope our kids find something like this
And they never let it go
Because I’ll never meet anyone else like this
Not like this

So you say your brain wants to **** you
Get you out of this place you say
But trapped, you must stay
Figure out how to breathe with water in your lungs
And breathe because your neighbor does it without pain
In bed you stay
In pain
Soaking it up
Like the suns rays

I love you
And I miss you
And I love you
They are synonymous

****
I wish it were me
Instead of her
I love you so much

16, 23, 30
I love you in them all
We don’t have to wait
Until the next life to be together now
Call me, call me, call me
Let me just talk to you

It doesn’t matter if I can’t see you
hear you,
or even speak to you sometimes
It could be 8 years
Or 1 year
And I always feel the same
You bring me to my knees

I just came here to say
I love you

Almost 12 am
I am reminiscing over every conversation we had
I saved them all
Sometimes when I miss you enough
I read them over and over
From the beginning
Like a movie of time being played out
Between us
When I see them enough
I feel like I’m near you
In that space where we were once
So so close
Almost like a Time Machine
I can’t figure out how it all happened so fast
you are like grasping at steam as it floats away
I can feel the wet heat in my hands
How can I be near you again  
I’m waiting for steam to rise, turn into rain, and wash over me

Goodnight
Sleep tight
Don’t let
The bed bugs
Bite
I miss you
I love you

I waited a whole year
Thinking maybe we would be together again
Maybe it was close to our time
Maybe you were just going through something
I kept looking for you everywhere
To tell you about Valentines
And then I told myself
Maybe you really did forget me
Maybe I was the only one here
I’m not sure of what I’m sure of anymore
But I do know how much I love you

How are you there
And I’m here
And why
Why do you want it this way

There isn’t at least one moment
Where I don’t think of you
On any day
Even when you are away

Hear ye
Hear ye
Two sham marriages
Instead of one happy one

Right people
Wrong place
Wrong time
Wrong universe
But I love you
Still

The only man
Who never called me names
Just stayed by my side
And celebrated

Do you come and go
Because it’s hard for you
Is it hard to talk to me
And think of everything we could be
Because I’d be with you
In anyway I could

I’m reeling between these messages
Because I know
Somewhere between our favorite shows
And books
And I miss yous
That there is a deep deep love

Homesick when you are an adult is different
Home isn’t a place anymore
Somehow it becomes a person
And as I’m sure you were taught
At a very young age
Life isn’t fair
Sometimes you miss someone so much
You think you won’t make it through the day
But you do anyway, and you keep on
And on and on and on
Years pass
But there you are
Still remembering the smell of his linen
Pressed against your nose

Rage burns inside me
It’s so easy to spit your own poison back at you
One way or another
It just hurts
Instead I sit here
Fire turns into hot tears
Rushing down my face
Burns ditches in lines
I wonder if karma is real
How do you continue to get away with this

Today I don't want to open my eyes
But I do
And the world still remains the same as if I never had